So my birthday is now drawing to a close, and it was great. Mom and Dad called me at the crack of dawn (which incidentally was almost my name) and sang. I worked, showed the new kid some of the ropes, trained him on the cash register, had him shadow me most of the day. And then we took a hike down to the falls. He's really sweet, 9 years my junior ( Read more... )

I'm a few hours away from turning 27.... and it's bittersweet for me. I don't generally want my birthday acknowledged with lots of fanfare and hoopla, I'm content to just have a few people wish me a happy day and get on with my life. I don't particularly enjoy being the center of attention... I tend to fall down a lot and when everyone is paying ( Read more... )

"My heart is hurting beyond words. The pain is tearing up my soul. This damaged past can never heal, until this nightmare book is closed."

I just ended a five year relationship with one of my best friends.

We haven't talked in months. And I've missed him for months. But not talking was for the best, until it wasn't and I broke. I wrote to him. Told ( Read more... )

I know this is going to sound totally crazy, but I feel like since I got this job, I am just as alone as I was when I was unemployed. I'm sure its because there's maybe 5% occupancy here right now, and because of how isolated this place is from civilization. But this was how I felt when it was just me all day long, with nothing to do. So far, I'm ( Read more... )

Ok, so I unexpectedly started my new job today. I got a call from my boss at 8 pm last night asking me to start today. I was woken up at 6:30 am, almost an hour before my alarm was set to go off, by Jon kissing me awake... would have been sweet if it hadn't been 6:30 in the friggin morning! Either way, it was a nice way to start the day. Drove out ( Read more... )

I have spent the last 15 weeks completely miserable. Completely despondent and hopeless. Thinking I was never going to find work, never going to be able to stay here with the man I love. And then suddenly, out of the cloud cover, a ray of light shone through the darkness. Enter a white knight, and an incredible opportunity. I have found work. Full ( Read more... )

Ok, as time goes on, I am finding it increasingly difficult to be here. I love New Hampshire, I always have, since school, but heres the thing... I'm miserable. Its a terminal angst, not simply one thing, its EVERYTHING. I am unemployed still, am alone all day long, and frankly I don't see it getting better. Yes, I have Jon and my sister and niece ( Read more... )

I think I would love nothing more than to scratch out every previous entry I've written here and start all over. Its physically painful for me to even acknowledge my previous relationship, let alone be confronted by it on this website. It took less time for me to forget about him than it did for me to fall for him. I don't need to be reminded. Bad ( Read more... )

Life has been interesting lately to say the least. I thought I was breaking up with my boyfriend.... instead, what ended up happening was me sitting him down and detailing what I was upset about, and how if he wanted to keep me in his life he was going to have to shape up BIG TIME!!!! Everyone else is against this; not so much because I did ( Read more... )

The last week has sucked so much ass, I can't even begin to tell you. It has quite literally been the week from hell. Last Saturday my brother calls me to tell me that I need to get to NY as quickly as I can because my Popi is in the hospital. So I get there Monday, I go to the hospital where he is in the critical care unit, and my dad is standing ( Read more... )