i want to crawl out of my skin ( Read more... )

i know everyone is technically dying but emotionally i think i'm extreamly close to being gone, my family is making me feel like i am up most and utterly f**ked up, which i think i am a bit but not that badly. And in all this chaos of sending me back and forth to shrinks i have missed hanging out with jessica one last time because she is now on her ( Read more... )

Whats up all!!!! I am still alive, surprising I know but I am… I kinda hide away tried to figure my head out, not sure how much it helped but i know hanging out every night with one or the other person all the time wasn’t helping me, and talking to any of them about my head wasn’t either since I couldn’t figure out how to explain what is wrong with ( Read more... )

UPDATED INFO ABOUT MY ROOMMATE ISSUE: he is in jail for 2 months, and then has to serve 30 days of community service, and take one full year of anger management classes and report back in with the info every week... fun stuff for him ( Read more... )

So i went in for shock therapy today, which is usually quit painful, but after having the sub massage therapist today, i'll take shock therapy any day over her, she was so bruttle, and painful, i feel like my whole shoulder is know brusied on top of the inside pain.. oh well so on wards threw my life ( Read more... )

So today my brother told me i need to see a psychologist, i told him i have one but i don't visit him anymore because i just don't its weird to talk to him about my personal problems now when i went to him about my f**ked up mom, or about the devorce or about wes dying, thats fine but about my personal life, i just can't do it, i'll be fine i say ( Read more... )

Paint my finger nails black before i sleep ( Read more... )

~Seven angels, Seven demons battle for her soul ( Read more... )

Right now, i am sad, and i am trying to hide it, but the only way i can do that honestly is by appearing to be a bitch, and its working, because my brother is mad at me for being bitchy, and brandi is complaining to mark that i am bitchy again, i don't know how else to handle things right now ( Read more... )

i am high... leagally... i went and saw doctor steven today, and he worked on my shoudler and made it feel better, i swear... even before he gave me the happy medicine... i like this stuff, i don't worry about my problems, on this stuff... its good.... well i'm wasting it by sitting in front of the computer so i'm going to go play with my nephew ( Read more... )