emotionally i am dyin

[bittersweetvamp]

i know everyone is technically dying but emotionally i think i'm extreamly close to being gone, my family is making me feel like i am up most and utterly f**ked up, which i think i am a bit but not that badly. And in all this chaos of sending me back and forth to shrinks i have missed hanging out with jessica one last time because she is now on her

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[methodicaldoubt]

a bowling injury, wierd and suckey. also sucky the family thinks you're crazy and that paying someone to listen to you will fix it. but i hope it works, though im not into that kind of thing myself. ok, later then.

nor am i

[bittersweetvamp]

i guess he riped open his stomach during practice... so a big bolwing injury... and they are paying this guy big bucks but whatever i dont care anymore

[vanityslays]

i'll be back. i'm not gone for good...too many things are in that hellish vortex for me not to go back..

i know how it feels to feel so fucked up. honest, i do. (ask me if you want, we'll talk about it, but not on lj)

i found someone outside of my family to help me. because honestly, all my mom wanted to do is put me on meds. which is good for some people, but not for me.

i'd say stand up for yourself, but know how hard that is to do.

and so i am at a loss for words

btw, it was me that called...i was worried