This is quite funny. I haven't written on the site in about three years. Three long years where my life changed dramatically. I lost quite a lot and I found and lost another love. It is my cycle to go through these moments of sadness and "decided" happiness. My greatest accomplishment would be finding another lover. He soften my edges from high ( Read more... )

It seems that I continue to beg for vengeance against everyone that has been so shady in the past 6 months. Its an old story but nevertheless it still exist as a slight problem for me. I would like to be done with them and move on but my attachment is by circumstance and my own personal manipulations. I am retaliating from within, I feel like I ( Read more... )

hatI'm back. I know I said that I would never return to this place but I guess I could not stay away. I finished high school, I accomplished so much. Four years at Governor's School has left me feeling empty. I am glad to be away from that place, but I wish I could return for one week and relive every great moment that has taken place there. That ( Read more... )

I have this slight feeling that this piece that will be in the spring show will be quite liberating for me. I have all of this emotional, romantic, and psychological baggage that I cannot get rid of. I'm expunging all of it into this piece and hopefully leaving it there. I really don't want to deal with my problems at this point. I don't want to ( Read more... )

Time is slowly slipping away. I'm going to graduate in a little over 2 months and I still haven't fully realized it. I haven't realized that I won't see these people for a long time, even some ever again. That is really depressing. How do you go on without these people here in your life everyday? I'm going to miss so many people and feel incomplete ( Read more... )

At first I think that life seems to be almost perfect. almost. I'm missing something right now, not sure what it is but I feel empty and undisturbed. I know the stress of having to be everyone bitch is going to return in a few hours when I have to wake up and see that my life is no longer mine. I'm living it for others, for trivial things that will ( Read more... )

I'm at a point where I'm not sure what is the next step. Everything has felt so spontaneous and free for the past week and I like it. I like not knowing or worrying about something that will happen. I guess this is temporal because I have to start thinking about my audition next Friday for college. I hope I get in because I really want to go there ( Read more... )

I'm not sure of what I am doing wrong, but it seems that this growing unkindness is spreading like wild fire. I want things to return to how they use to be, before the witch hunt, before the devastations and disappointments, and back to a time of peace. I know that I probably will never see that here but trying seems like a good idea to me. I can't ( Read more... )

This week so far has been rough for me. It seems that somehow I find myself wondering why am I still dancing when I can't even convince my teacher to help me? I think about all the different reasons why I am in corp while others are in the limelight. I guess I have to face the fact that maybe this profession isn't for me anymore. I can't handle it ( Read more... )

So I found out today the most terrifying thing ever. No matter what happens I never would think of something that has become a reality. This is a new year, new ideals, and inevitably new people to meet. I'm leaving very soon and there is no turning back. I have found myself after 3 years of searching and I'm glad that I found it now before I leave ( Read more... )