I've been in this creative writing class this semester and I've never felt more unoriginal than now. But I also don't care. And that's cool. I mean I still want to get a better hair cut and a better wardrobe but I've found myself not giving a shit. Here's what I wrote for an assignment that's due tomorrow. I don't really know what the assignment ( Read more... )

am i doing the right thing? should i be here? why don't i sound how i want to sound. why can't i phrase anything right verbally and rhythmically? why do i keep putting question marks after every OTHER question. there i go again. i'm SO OVER MY VOICE I CAN'T EVEN STAND IT. there are some days when i'm like "yeah, you're improving!" but singing is so ( Read more... )

there are enough times in the day that i smile that i should be grateful for. i'm pleased with the short term plans i've made with myself. i'm okay here and that's all i can ask for. i'm SO happy with all of my classes. my group is AMAZING. my voice teacher is AMAZING. we have the same feet and she's soooooooooo good. i made it into dance workshop ( Read more... )

i turned 19 the other day. i went to disneyland with my mom and mango and it was fun. i took my birthday off of facebook to see who would actually remember it, and alas no one did. but it's whatever. the two people who have called me at 12 on my birthday no matter how little we talk still called so that's nice. i got coco mademoiselle, rainbows, an ( Read more... )

i hope some day i'm effective.

i realized, today, that there's no rush order on life. i have watched approximately 10 episodes of law & order: special victims unit today. make that 11 now. 11 hours of my life well spent. see? no rush. tomorrow is a new day and if i live to see it i'm going to take it as-is. and all of these places and all of these ( Read more... )

i'm just so grateful for the people that fall in my lap. lovevolution was fantasticle and i feel weight lifted. sometimes i'm so happy with myself. i got a new blouse today and i'm in love with it. i got an iphone, sometimes good things happen. and i need to remember that they do instead of dwelling on shit. i'm excited to use my mind again and ( Read more... )

i'm relating this whole thing to ecstasy. i'm conflicted. i'm torn. i have nothing to show. i have nothing to give. i feel like i've been in this body for the last 19 years and i can't remember anything i've done. i don't feel like i've done anything for anyone but myself yet i don't feel personally accomplished in the slightest. i don't want to go ( Read more... )

this has got to be the most annoying age to turn. in case anyone was wondering, here is my list of things i want sometime in the future (or for my birthday, whatever ( Read more... )

i'm really tempted to move to new york like tomorrow

GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD:

We are all different. We all have different interests. It is not your place to make me feel bad about things I am passionate about- especially if you're not supporting me in it. Now grow the fuck up.

Thank you.

PS Chris... did I leave my charger at your house?