Wow! What a week! AP Chemistry and AP French are going to anal violate me this year and not in the good way. I'm trying to remember why I chose to take such challenging classes my senior year...can't seem to recall. In all honestly most the classes I am taking require a rediculous amount of work but they are also rediculously fun. Does that make ( Read more... )

What goes around comes around. We hear it all the time yet we continue with our lives, making decisions without thinking them through and then grumbling about the negative consequences that may ensue. I repeatedly find myself in such situations. I really have to start thinking about the possible consequences of my actions before I make decisions. ( Read more... )

Today I went to visit my good friend Anna. Anna and I used to date back in the dark days but since then we have become very close friends. Anna just got back from boot camp and I must say that while she is still the same country girl that I grew up with she seemed so much more refined. It reminded me of the metamorphosis of a caterpillar to a ( Read more... )

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TA DA! JE SUIS ICI ENCORE MES ENFANTS! Hello to all of you who care about me enough to actually take the time to read this and have been bickering about when I am going to update next. Well here it is kiddies! I am wonderful! Well...more wonderful than I have been in a long while. Many thanks to all the loverly doctors that helped me get my happy ( Read more... )

Anxiety attack! I hate saying it. Sounds so corny. "OMG I THINK I'M HAVING AN ANXIETY ATTACK!" But it's true and it's horrible. I'm worried about losing something that has been so special to me that past 2 weeks. I wan't to get up and do something about things but then I remembered something I said earlier today, "Whatever happens happens, I just ( Read more... )

I hate these mood swings! They are absolutely horrible, make me feel crazy. I'll be fine one moment, nothing is wrong at all, and the next moment my mood will drop to rock bottom. It's hard sometimes because I don't know what sets me off but I hate being pissy to people I care about. Anyways, I get to see prince charming tomorrow, going to nyc with ( Read more... )

Hello everyone! Argh! My last entry was so sad and despairing! Well, I finally left school because of my problems and I am very happy to be getting help at long last. It's much easier to think and be at rest without all the stresses of Hotchkiss; I finally feel like I can hear myself think clearly and I've done a lot of think about the way my life ( Read more... )

It's April Fool's Day today and I am the fool. How stupid I was to put my trust into someone again, to think for one second that this hell I have been living everyday would actually let go. I just hope he makes the right choice; he deserves to be happy, more than anyone else I know. We could be so happy together. Something like this just makes one ( Read more... )

I feel like I am coming back to life! This boy has been so great for me; I hope it doesn't stop here. The past few days with him have been amazing, I am feeling better every day. He is incredibly sweet and attractive; he seems like he has a heart of gold. It's such a relief to be able to spend time time with someone and not just thing about sex, I ( Read more... )