its not fun having your love live so far away. i am so jealous of rachel, i don't know what to do about it. everytime i see her an ed i get pissed cause i can't hold chris untill the weekend.i guess thats what i get for loving someone so far away. i was told to dress differntly by my theropist. she said maybe if i wouldn't dress in baggy close i ( Read more... )

very interesting conversation with chris tonight. i just love our little talks ( Read more... )

alright so i figured some stuff out. and i really don't feel like typing it all out so if you want to know just ask and i'll explain ( Read more... )

ive decided to write in this journal again, i don't know why ( Read more... )

i have a new journal... ask me and i'll give you the site

alex wasn't in school today, so orchestra sucked ass. im not over him yet, and i flipped out on rachel at lunch because she told me not to love him anymore, its not that easy. but whatever. stupid art show tonight, i dont want to go. the only reason i am going is because i have no homework and i don't want to be here with my parents because well ( Read more... )

so many relationships; friends and lovers that i have fucked up, and i think its time for me to say 'im sorry ( Read more... )

Things that went wrong today ( Read more... )

so im back home, i wish i wasn't because lex's house is the best. i miss being kyle's friend, but he dosn't deserve a friend like me, i'll just fuck things up worse for him, and i really hope that he understands where im coming from. the last thing i wanna do his hurt him, i did that enough. i really want to work on me right now, because i am ( Read more... )

so i just got back from lex's boyfriend's band practice and chris showed up, and how happy i was to see him. nobody wants me to be with him, but honestly he makes me happier than anything and i really never realized this, but i missed him. so we hung out and shit and i get this phone call from my mother,apparently she dosn't want me hanging out ( Read more... )