im talking to dana right now, i havn't talked to her all weekend and she has no idea what has been going on. with friday night and kyle and everything. she was the very first person i told that i liked him and she has been soo suportive throughout everything. so i told her what has been going on and of course she talked me through it all. no wonder ( Read more... )

you think that marissa would realize that cutting yourself is WRONG,but i guess not. dude i feel responsible for this, i mean if she wouldn't have seen me done i maybe she wouldn't have gotten the idea that it was okay and its not okay. i almost died in 7h grade because of it. i cut my thighs and stomach soo bad i sill have scars. i have to go and ( Read more... )

i spent the whole day with miss today. i love that girl sooo much. haha we were walking around like total and complete idiots haha those guys that were beeping at us at marios it was only because you had your pink hoe shirt on and i had my black one on. thanks for doing something with me today hunny i couldn't sit at home and just wollow in my ( Read more... )

so last night i scared the hell out of the one person who acutally loves me. & that made me feel even more awful so i cut somemore. yes i have a problem with that. all of a sudden i just started again. last year i had no intention of doing it. this year just sucked. the love of my life beat me and i had to break up with him because he could have ( Read more... )

the subject says everything, i want to kill myself. i don't want to be here anymore. i want to take the knife and jab it through my heart and just die. watch the cold blood run out of my body and watch the people aroun me not care and laugh ( Read more... )

me and marissa had one of our talks today at lunch. so worried about her, i know exactly whats shes going through and i want to help her anyway that i can, maybe thats by leaving her alone for awhile. but she kows that im always going to be there for her ( Read more... )

white roses are sent to friends, red roses are sent to loved ones. white is a pure color, red is the color of blood which represents pain. so why do we send our loved ones red roses instead of white? is friendship more pure then love? .... the basis of my confusion. should i stick with being friends? or become lovers and mess up the best friendship ( Read more... )