so me and kyle are talking and i love him and want to be with him, but things are soo fucked up at the moment between us i don't know what to think anymore. its like i can't talk to him like i used to and i miss that feeling. where whatever popped into my fucked up mind i could tell him and he would understand. i know i fucked up with him and i ( Read more... )

well today was fun, no not really. last day of the 9th grade project but i have so much more shit to work on so its really not over for me and alex. me and alex gave up on kyle today. jeez i try so hard with the kid but nooo its like he dosn't care anymore, so im not going to anymore. i found out that i have alot more friends then i thought i did. ( Read more... )

why do i bother anymore? the moment that i begin to trust again i get that person gets ripped way from me. for reason that i have no idea why. my only reason at the moment to keep on living is dana. "i need you" its the best feeling in the world to be needed. and school really sucks right now with 9th grade projects and i gotta spanish test on ( Read more... )

i hate me. i hate the fact that i can't let peole know who the real me is, hell i don't know who the real me is. i hate the fact that i am so emotional. i hate the fact that i can't trust anybody. i hate the fact that when i get to a point where i can trust somebody i start becoming distant towards them and they have no idea what the hell is going ( Read more... )

im happy n a little messed up ... well im talking to alex soo thats probally why

i have a lot to complain about and alot to explain about myself. my life is not as peachy as it may seem. and i know your thinking it can't be that bad.. well it is. i don't want pitty or anything or for you to feel bad or me. because most of this is my fault and my shit to deal with. i have a father who just dosn't understand anything anymore, and ( Read more... )

secound day of 9gp... and wow it open our eyes up to all of the stress that we have to deal with. luckly our team is good at communicating and we can tell eachother if we hate that idea or whatever. i have so much to think about on so many topics everything is just confuzing right now and i can' help but to just sit down a cry my eyes out like a ( Read more... )

so today wasn't a bad as i thought it was going to be. me alex rachel n kyle are peachy now.. thank god. and me and travis talked and hes right.. i have to let him go, i don't want to, but i have to. for my sake and the sake of me keeping the best friends in the world. a guy isn't worth losing something that precious over, and i hate the fact that ( Read more... )

so today totally fucking sucked... no more then sucked it was horrible. everything was going peachy untill i heard that travis liked me, and you know what? i like him back. ive always had that feeling honestly never went away so i asked him if he still liked me for real and he said "yes" and i told kyle that i liked him and me kyle alex n rachel ( Read more... )

you know im not sad and im not happy... im just okay. today was interesting... in the sense that me and travis "talked" wow i said hi to him.. lol and that people are really stupid and need to stop talking shit. im not going to mention any names but really.. its my life i live it the way i want to and you are just going to have to live with it. ( Read more... )