Wow how far you've come, or not at all. The same repetitious negativity towards our futures. Gets old. And we rely on the same outlets although some have had to go for their risks outweighed their benefits. But it seems to hit at this time every year, all this hope building up to another disappointing outcome. But you had fun. or you altered your ( Read more... )

You don't deserve to be lonely
But those drugs you've got won't make you feel better
Pretty soon you'll find its the only
Little part of your life you're keeping together

It's great to feel good about yourself on a more regular basis, I guess all these people don't think what you're thinking they think about you afterall. They're really just thinking about themselves, and all the things they're imagining you're thinking about them. Its a very self-conscious world. But what if they are thinking all those terrible ( Read more... )

http://www.chron.com/cs/CDA/ssistory.mpl/headline/features/3112640

Really depressing, for those of you who knew him. I was always waiting for him to get real big, because he really deserved it. I guess its a waste to admire anyone...

Today marking the end to a mostly wasted spring break, and still shaking off an abnormally depressing hang-over, I question whether my concerns are appropriately placed. The last two years were spent creating a path to some reasonable future, one that didn't turn me into a bitter, lonely and poor old man. Only now sitting in my room where I usually ( Read more... )

On a lighter note, Hunter S. Thompson shot himself in the head.

Life is so boring. Not Earth specifically but, being alive. Even when I'm doing things that are by most people's standards entertaining I'm just so bored and discontent with everything. At work and school where I just do these things that are handed to me, I feel like anyone could do them and its a waste of time. I feel like I'm capable of much ( Read more... )

We put a mark high on the ceiling and would stare at it everynight before we went to sleep. It was much higher than we could reach so we could never have done it alone. We would lay there awake hours past our desired bed time. It reminded us that even with all the things we are capable of, real meaning was only accomplished together. It seemed ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure who I'm talking to when I write things here. I've been told my posts are too often direct. Not targeting a general audience but a specific person. But thats not really true, I've gone back to read and its usually myself. Completely defeating the purpose of a journal of the online persuasion. And I rarely have anything to say so ( Read more... )

I can now afford to look at things from the perspective you have enjoyed for the past few years. That lost & lonely stare. God I am so close. Its funny to imagine how heartless you'd have to be to enjoy looking down toward dreams you have ignored, surpassed. It won't be long before this part is over and we are guilty of forgetting. remember high ( Read more... )