I have never felt more confused and alone as I feel right now, things aren't the way I would like them to be and I have no one to blame but my own miss guided hopes. I need some direction right now, I need a life. All this sitting around and doing nothing is eating away at my sense of reality, mainly my ideas of life and why my life means to me. I ( Read more... )

So wensday night I saw the Whitestripes with the Yeah yeah yeahs. It was great I saw Brian Rose and his girl (excuse me for forgeting your name) Karla and Hillary. It was a total blast. Carmen and I chilled the whole night, I felt terrible cause she was soo short and couldn't see a damn thing. For a couple songs I lifted her up on my back so she ( Read more... )

Hey there ( Read more... )

dispite the full moon obscuring the meteor shower things have been fantastic. My job, besides some dog shit and a leaky faucet, has been a breeze and I finally got paid yesterday. I move up in less than 20 days and then i can finally settle in, which is alot better than this semi boxed up life I have lead recently ( Read more... )

hey hey Amelia is back in town WHAT WHAT! Couldn't be more exited just chilling with her right now. I wish I could have her with me always, like you know, a pocket monster or something, and just feed her m&ms every once and a while. While in reality I wish she would move in with me for a while, like a week or two before she leaves for college so I ( Read more... )

eh... i am lame in my failure to update.. like ever.

Lets see... nothing really big happening, have a paper to do, sasquach is coming up, got a place to stay over the summer, and that is about it i am going to go poo

james

Just kicking it on a Thursday afternoon makes me feel dirty. I think that life should be so full of things to do, even if that thing is relaxing, that there isn't such a thing as wasting time, or passing time. At least not yet, I dream of passing time in the future when I have completed stuff. Hmm stuff... do deep so real, so um ... defined as I ( Read more... )

The comment was pretty simple just that she was going to go hot tubing with some guy she met, but it really hit me. I think I really like this girl if I was instantly struck by such a powerful feeling because Amelia is hot tubing with some guy. I would like to say that I trust her, but I am so conflicted by my want to trust her and how many times I ( Read more... )

First day of class ( Read more... )

Yeah dispite the really fucked up finals situation, no sleep, no hope, no food, no coffee, no fun, I am finally free. With all the parting and drug use (albeit not that much drug use but i am not used to any use anyways) I still ended up getting a 3.7 ( Read more... )