fucking shite. its bad enough to feel HALFway normal, i have to aquire some of my xanax illicitly, but to be critisized like i know little to nothing about myself or my disorder and get scorned for the route of administration that i chose to use when i had 1/6 of a damn blue pill left IS FUCKING REDICULOUS. im not going to explain. im sure the ( Read more... )

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hahahah my livejournal in PIRATE TALK ( Read more... )

its saturday... mike and i are still contemplating a trip somewhere... whether it be to michigan to say hello to christofferson, or to canada just for the hell of it with mikes brother, i dont know. ive got a plan to have around 200 dollars this week. no one shall know where it comes from, it will come though ( Read more... )

my theorys prove true. my thought process killed through extensive anger/snorting of ones own tears. i dont even know how i got to be in this seat typing again.

no thought... oh well. im going to get some more natural endorphins while i can. TIME TO RIDE MY BIKE TO DEMING PARK,

the camping idea that was a whole 2 posts ago never goes well with my buddies. i may go on my own. i need this as a cleansing experience. alone on psychedelics can be confusing sometimes though ( Read more... )

my life begins every morning with fucking physical pain. living with the physical pain entices mental anguish about the physical pain. mental anguish in turn causes anxiety disorder and spawns new anxiety related pains (ive got a super fucked up upper back and a lovely bleeding ulcer to back that one up, too.), thus returning the cycle to the first ( Read more... )

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well i did it. i took the Lexapro. i read it increaced suicide rates so i think that may have been the main cause for doing so. another reason was, well, because my mom now basically told me i was injecting drugs with a baby medicine syringe. it certainly doesnt help what my doctor told me it was for. it made me a damn insomniac to the point where ( Read more... )