Eugene kicked my ass today. It was good to see Dan and Tom though. But the 4 hour ride back was the worst. I slept in my car with the engine turned off, traffic was dead ( Read more... )

My nephew Charlie's first birthday is coming up soon. I think I'm gonna give him a letter, to be opened when he's old enough to need it and understand it. He has plenty of toys, too many hipster baby clothes that he'll grow out of anyways so I thought this might be a good thing to do this time around.

Charlie,

When I give this letter to your ( Read more... )

Saw Leslie tonight. That sucked. A lot. I was hoping I'd get out of Eugene without seeing her again. At least then I could get her out of my head. Yeah, seeing your ex girlfriend on a date is shitty. Really shitty. Not that she did anything bad, it was just hard to see is all.

Billards player breaking ( Read more... )

at work today Leslie told someone she couldn't run more than one photo on the page, but we could run a bunch online and in a moment of douche baggery I reminded her how much bullshit she thought it was when flux did the same thing to her.  I wish I would've said it in a different way, if at all.  I wish I still wasn't angry at her, still wasn't in ( Read more... )

Went to a party tonight. I think this stuff with Leslie is finally starting to subside a bit. Seeing her in that dress did not help, not one bit.  I'm stoked to see how this stuff with Heather goes though.  Things are moving along much differently than I'd expected on that end. We'll see I guess.

I'm worried that I'm never going to find another woman who makes me feel as wonderful as she did.  I don't feel like my world is turned upside down or that I'll never be able to function without her, not like last time.  I know that all the things that changed in me while we were together were not things that can only happen with her around, I know ( Read more... )

"I wonder if she'll ever actually be affectionate, if she'll tell me that she thinks I'm wonderful. That I actually mean something to her?" That's from something I wrote a day or two ago, before Leslie and I broke up again.  I hope she understands that she has absolutely broken my heart and that she did it simply because she hadn't thought ( Read more... )

Is fucking furious.  Dan is telling me that if I can't dedicate more time to Flux he's going to have to ask me to step down. Because I've taken off three days.  This is assuming that I've completely taken off any of these three days.  On top of it, he's bitching about everything being lit, but is simultaneously remarking that everything is clear, ( Read more... )

I finally have a camera worked out to use for Kite Aerial Photography, now I just need the kite, a large SD card and the camera rig.  I'm gonna ask for all that for my birthday I think. The camera shoots 7mb frames, 1 frame a second. So I think I'm just gonna get the biggest SD card I can find(32gb) and tape down the shutter button. 32 gb would ( Read more... )