This is the first time in my life where I have been truly apathetic. Usually I still have some kind of emotional problems but after the breakdown, I just kind of went numb. Maybe it's the medication. I don't know. With everything going on, I would normally feel really mad and confused but I don't. It's really odd having the feeling of feeling ( Read more... )

Hmm.
Life is uneventful.
People are gay/unreliable.
Harry Potter 3 comes out on June 4.
I'm way excited.
Kelsey and I are going to pimp it out in our Harry Potter gear.
June 5 should be good too.
Good bands are playing.
Jamie sucks.
He's contaminated(again).
Yeah, the end.

I realized I haven't updated in forever and since today was eventful, I will write about it. This morning me and my mother and Sara went shopping at thrift town. I got a jacket, a skirt,and this cute shirt. After that, we came home and layed around and got ready for the concert. We went with Ian to go see Anatomy of a Ghost, Emery, and the ( Read more... )

This weekend has been pretty interesting. James came down on Friday and spent the night. It rocked. We played video games and sat on my roof. He brought me like 5987980378935 video games. So, in other words, I'm never leaving my room. He only stayed until about 2. My relatives came down at about 3:30 so I didn't have much of a break. We all went ( Read more... )

Well, life is confusing. I suppose that is the way it is and I'm learning to cope with it. I recently bought a new journal(an actual one) and I think it's helping me sort out my thoughts. My new medication is appearing to work so I'm not crying all the time. It does have a tendency to make me get headaches though. What can you do ( Read more... )

I fear I have come to the last place I have to reiterate my thoughts. I don't even know what has happened to me. I've lost the only things I was sure about. The only people I had left to believe in me have given up on me. I can't say I blame them. I don't understand myself. I don't get why I do the things I do. I'm a mess. My life is just one big ( Read more... )

Spring break consisted of lots of drunkin' college guys and trashy mexicans. Wow. South Padre definetly wasn't what I expected but it still r00led. Kelsey and I walked a lot and layed in the sand. Jamie rocks my socks off and Zach...well, he was okay sometimes. Other than being at the beach, we really didn't do anything. Kelsey and I are going to ( Read more... )

I'm finding that I rarely write in this anymore and when I do, it is pretty much so I can say I still have one. The weekend was good. I love Sara and Rylee, they make life worth living. I got to feed cows and get drooled on a lot. It rocked. I find myself caring less and less as the days go by....That, and getting more annoyed with dumb people. I ( Read more... )

The weekend was alright. Not wonderful or horrible ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot lately. Mostly about life and the way things are and how much I want to change them but can't. I feel so trapped here. Like, I don't want to be here but don't want to go back either. If I had the chance to do things over again, I don't think I would. I suppose that it's easy to say knowing that I can never go back. I feel ( Read more... )