im so angry& have no 1 to talk to about this,so im just gonna write here.im obsessed with my body,im obsessed with beauty and perfection.i spend every minute pointing out my flaws,wishisng I was skinny,how I can loses more weight.im on my phone up till 3am googleing on the internet about getting thin!i can't control it or get it out of my mind.i ( Read more... )

ok.well I fucked up and let myself down.AGAIN! I didn't start my maple syrup diet 2day.i had to eat,for social reasons.and 2marrow im having breakfest with my dad.but after that no more food..since I've been eating 4 a month.i notice my pants get tighter.eww.its horrible.and since I've been eating I feel tired all time.when I don't eat I feel ( Read more... )

the maple syrup detox is the master cleanse.the ingrediants are 8oz. of water. half a lemon juice,and two tablespoons of 100 percent maple syrup.drink ONLY this for however long.u can lose up to 2lbs A DAY! im actually offically starting 2marrow..it doesn't taste that bad either.so go grocrey shopping!! let's be skinny!

today I started the maple syrup detox diet,well sorta I had a latte and a bowl of cereal.but today was when I 1st tried it.it tast like lemon water but kinda nasty.its not that bad tho.i have 2drink 8glasses a day.so I can lose 2lbs a day..soo cool.if anybody wants 2start this with me.lets do it.its gonna b hard the first few days,but that's ( Read more... )

ok.so today wasn't that great of a day,so I ate! AGAIN!! eww.gross.well todays the last day.im starting my maple fast 2marrow.im so discusted with myself.ive gained like 10 lbs. this month.cuz I've been eating.i was doing so great 2 before then.damn it.what a fuck up! I just wanna be thin and feel sexy about myself.no more eating.food always fucks ( Read more... )

okay well today I ate again.eww.im omly eating for a few more days then im doing my detox fasting.YAY! u know I don't understand how fat people think there beautiful!i mean how can they keep stuffing there face! its fucking gross.skinny is beautiful peopl,look at these models.my dream ever since I was little is to be a model.my face is beautiful. ( Read more... )

If anybody wants new pics of me let me know.i can't post them on my LJ cuz my computers down and im using my PDA.so just give me ur e-mail address and ill give u some.

ok.well I know I have been eating this month but I don't think I can do it anymore.I am getting so sick of being full,i hate it.Today I ate 3 pieces of pizza and I feel discusting.usually my daily meal is a coffee and a diet coke.well starting in 2days im gonna go on the maple syrup diet that Beyonce did.i heard it works like magic.it seems really ( Read more... )

wow!! its been a long time since I've been on LJ.i guess its because I just didn't have time and I was going through a lot.well since I wrote last I was at the height of my ED.i lost a lot of weight and it was great.i always feel better when I do.its like sex.oh ya and sex is better when im thinner.im 5'9 and I've never been fat I've always had an ( Read more... )

I weigh myself at least 12 times a day on the scale? HOw many times does everybody else weigh themselves????