PEOPLE AREN'T WHAT THEY SEEM. THATS ALL I CAN REALLY SAY RIGHT NOW AS ALL THESE UNANSWERED QUESTIONS AND THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND.

Nothing much has been going on. I have just been hanging out with some friends having a good time and not enough time to write. It hurts a little to have watched one of my friends throw his life down the drain and do the things he did to me but I am not going to let that get me down because it's his choice and no matter how much I wish he was the ( Read more... )

i quit my job, but i got another one. but now i am having second thoughts about this job because i have to lie to everyone about it. i mean it would pay good money but then i don't know. i am confused about everything. right now i feel like i want to move back to mississippi and forget that i ever came over here to this town. i just feel out of ( Read more... )

Everything today seems a lot better than it was yesterday. I was just scared shitless and didn't know what to do so I just started typing anything that came to my head. But I won't lie because sometimes I do feel like if I wasn't here that a lot of things would be better than they are right now. I also know that I couldn't stay in Mississippi and ( Read more... )

i am so tired of everything. i don't even want to be here anymore. my life is just nothing but a big joke. i am not worth anything and either is anything else in my life. i don't care anymore what happens to me or what anyone thinks of me or even if i was to die. anything would be better than my life at this point. everyone thinks i am nothing as ( Read more... )

it seems that whenever i am finally happy someone comes along and takes that away from me. i am starting to believe that happiness isn't for me anymore. i try and try, but then some people in this world seem to put a damper on my happiness causing me to feel just like i use too. like i said in my other journal entries, i love myself and that is all ( Read more... )

                                     ?What to do What to do?

confusion:

• friends, sister, life, me

       FRIENDS: It is really hard now of days to tell who your true friends are. When you think they are your true friend they seem to prove you wrong. When it's just me and my friend he/she talks ( Read more... )

sleeping is something i have seemed to lack lately. i'll hang in there like i have been and go to work even though i may look a little cracked out....

i have been hanging out with sean and heather lately. we have had some fun nights together just like the old times. it feels good to sort of be back to the way our gang use to be. we are ( Read more... )