Its been one year... I'm sorry..

hello friends. well... i guess i have lots to talk about. crenlo was a fail. heat stroke happened. .... i took some time... off... for me. i had money... so... i decided to do nothing. it was lovely. and hellish. crenlo. ending school. moving to roch. losing friends. being lonely. i got really depressed.. suicidal. got on antidepressants.. yeah... ( Read more... )

so i started at crenlo like two weeks ago... its been... oh gosh.. its been rough. its the most physical ive worked in like.. ever. it was 10 hours a day of serious work-lifting, moving, bending, kneeling- the whole time. it wasnt happy.. it was very hard.. my whole body hurt. i talked to my supervisor throughout and let him know that i was having  ( Read more... )

so my internship started.. oh man.. so i wake up at 5am... to be there by 6am. thats not cool. thats SO not cool! i spend my day making cranes. so.. i take a tube of metal weld some shit to it..set it aside and do it again. over and over. ..i cant lift the biggest piece we make... so i have to get this guy bryan to help.. and he hates it. im ( Read more... )

life is going pretty well right now. welding is going alright. im still nothing special, but the more im there... the happier i get... seriously guys.. i really love welding. we started doing TIG recently.. with TIG you use a foot pedal to control the gas.. it reminds me of sewing.. which i love doing. all the guys had a hard time catching on to it ( Read more... )

hey guys. just a quick update on things with me. so. i started welding. so... sort of. classes started a few days ago but we havent really welded yet. we tried for the first time today and i fuckin suck. like... really.... omg.. i just.. had so many problems for some reason. for instance... you have to wear safety glasses all the time even when ( Read more... )

I havent gone to see my therapist thing in a couple months... not because things were going bad or i didnt like her... actually i think shes pretty cool.. but.. therapy is strange. i found it really really hard to talk to her. i mean okay, she wasnt going to judge me. she never did. i wasnt afraid.. but... id start to talk and then id realize that ( Read more... )

well.. tomorrow is march 31st. this year it happens to be easter.. but two years ago it was a thursday and... well yeah so two years ago tomorrow i had my car accident. and im really sorry im repetitive and that once a year ill probably post about this.. it just... its a thing that happened and its a big in my life.. physically im still dealing ( Read more... )

hey guys... so... life.... yeah.. its going.. alright. im only taking two classes this semester. both of them suck and i hate them. i havent gone to either of them in a few weeks... sigh... kinda just buying my time now i guess until i can start at south east tech in the summer/fall... HCO is getting more difficult and stressful.. cant say anything ( Read more... )

i don't like men... who are drunk... and in a car... and drive by screaming at me that im a slut and a bitch and a whore.... and follow me for blocks.... and try to run me over when crossing the street...... and who sit down the street with their lights on waiting for me to come out of my apartment..... yeah.... i hate those kinds of men...