i normally like the cold. but right now, im sad, cold, and alone.
and drunk. now im drunk and alone. god, im a sad person.

i need a friend and some chicken noodle soup.
and i need to get better by tomorrow.

i cant seem to shake this feeling, not with silence, not with lies, not with booze, or with sleep, or truth, or dreams, or hugs, or pills. its with me, and no matter how hard i try, or not try to change it, it seems things are getting worse. true, i have stresses in my life, but this is something rooted deep. i can feel it grabbing on, taking in ( Read more... )

i am patient and psychiatrist.
this relationship doesnt seem to work too well.

i hurt so bad i can hardly think...

i wish i could say things have settled down within me. it feels as if im someone else looking in at me, watching me, allowing me to go numb for awhile. i cannot let this go, ive invested too much. i am a very logical and emotional person. i put my heart into things probably a little too easily at times. my head questions everything to death. i feel ( Read more... )

i dont know whats wrong with me right now. ive never felt this outside of myself that i can remember, excluding the period i was on prozac. i was pissed off, but now im just sad.. or something... i dont know. i guess im going to go to the club to be surrounded with music and people and lights.. just noise above all else. i wish i could sleep better ( Read more... )

I hate how theres always somebody who feels somebody else should know a part of my life. I hate how somebody else chooses whats unlike me and therefore wrong. And Im sick of hearing how Im ruining my life. This is part of the reason I disappeared two years ago. This is making me want to do it again, but its hard to be alone a lot and its mean to ( Read more... )

i had a good weekend.... ^_^

ah, the sound of an alcoholic taking out the trash..