"Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it." -- Fyodor Dostoevsky ( Read more... )

Wow it's been such a long time since I sat down and wrote something here. I guess I stopped because this seemed to turn into a laundry list people I've dated... How did my journal become that when my life has so much more going on than that ( Read more... )

I could go on and on about what a filthy piece of shit Bryce turned out to be but I don't care for him even that much to give him air play in my blog. He was just one big terrible rebound relationship ( Read more... )

When I loose faith is when I am shown the way. It happens every time. I said to myself "I give up!" and then I found him. I have no clue where this is going to take me... but it will probably be until May before any big plans are made. It's really way to soon for me to make formal introductions and say too much about him, just know he makes me so ( Read more... )

I want very badly to forgive. I want to tell her that she meant the world to me. That just because I didn't feel the same way for her as she felt for me that she was a huge part of my world. I wish I could say to her face that I am happy for her happiness. I know everything happens for a reason. I also know where my place is in this world, even ( Read more... )

Ok if I didn't dislike Carrie enough for how things have unfolded ( Read more... )

He got the glasses that he had talked about getting when we were together. He looks great. I find it impossible to hate him, but so easy to hate her. I guess because I never expected much from him because no matter what he was always choosing someone over me. Through it all I'm still incredulously addicted to him. I want so badly to joke around and ( Read more... )

Tonight I read through old journals. It probably wasn't that smart of a thing to do. I have been doing really well with getting over Ben. I really love(d) him more than any other man I have ever met. I believed the words he said to me when he said he loved me. You just don't fall out of love with someone from one week with them around their friends ( Read more... )

Over analyzing things as I always do, I was thinking about the events ( Read more... )

Life has been absolutely crazy lately. I thought I had everything figured out and just when I do *WHAP* I hit a brick wall ( Read more... )