I'm afraid. I don't want to have this feeling...but i can't help it. I don't want him to hate me. Or be mad at me. Or ignore me. Or leave me. But i can't stop myself from thinking that it's going to happen. Something will come up and i'll be left here. If the past repeats itself...at least this time i'm going to fight. I know that the love i have ( Read more... )

The same stuff keeps happening over and over again. I cannot stop it and it will not go away. It does not matter what I try to do, it will always be there, haunting my heart. I am losing sleep. I walk around aimlessly, waiting for something new to happen. It does not. I would have walked myself to death had it not been for those few times that I ( Read more... )

I hate the person i am now. I've become such a weak minded person and i can not control my emotions at all. I used to be very good at hiding things and putting up that fake mask that always had a smile plastered on it. Now it just seems like it keeps getting harder and harder for me to even bring up a smile. I almost always have tears threatening ( Read more... )

So lab was canceled today due to labor day...which is weird..but i'm not going to complain. World lit was somewhat boring. We basically only talked about the religious satires in Candide which led to a long lecture on the inquisition. I sat there trying to remember the song about the inquisition from history of the world. Gotta love Mel Brooks. So ( Read more... )

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I've decided...finally...that I’m not going to get rid of this journal...instead I’m going to post in both of my journals...with the other one still being my main one...but this one will actually become more active than it has been lately ( Read more... )

wow...i still have yet to get rid of this one...

BWHAHAHAhAHAHAHAhahcbahbsafikabj...Gomen...anyways...can you believe that i haven't deleted this thing yet....i can..it's because i'm too lazy

This journal is still not dead yet....And Kent is sitting over my shoulder....No Yaoi reading for me....

OMG its not dead yet..

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