i am SO fucking anxious. i just want to hear from you. and i want you to be happy.

there are some things that feel out of my control. i want neither to believe in them, nor to be in denial. i want these things to not exist.

this this is it
it it's all about activity
activity but with a mindlessness
this this is how we get by

life is fluid. where you are today is not where you will be tomorrow. feelings, relationships, jobs, pets, houses, friends, they all change. the only constant here is you; the same you traveling through time and space. but let me warn you, as life is fluid so must you be; if you don't change, your life will move on without you; and the last place ( Read more... )

he is always busy,
i am always bored;
he is always tired,
i am always bottled up;
he wishes he had the time to write,
i wish i had a better excuse not to;
he works,
i wait;
he lives,
i wait;
he naps,
i wait;
he's got his life figured out,
i need a life.

so i've been trying this new thing of living consciously and purposefully and i feel now, for the first time ever, as though i am living my life the way it is supposed to be lived: casually, but deliberately. this is my attempt to approach reality with realism; i live because i am living; i act because i am moving; i hum because life is cinematic; ( Read more... )

i realized after my goodnight spliff last night that i have been so extremely lucky enough to have constantly found at least one person at all times whom i feel very particularly aware of and connected with. i ignore many people and judge many people and don't give certain people chances, refuse to open up to most, but when i do find that person ( Read more... )

i can''t even begin. ok so i'm a tad bit drunk off wine coolers and a good bit high and rather twitchy and nicoteen'd but as i sit here waiting for my bedtime movie to download, i figure; holy fuck when did i finally get an amazing boyfriend who i can love unconditionally and oh my god and smoke weed and be clumsy and always touch and hold hands ( Read more... )

we're too busy, too mature, too preoccupied, too tired, too numb ( Read more... )

I NEED TO MAKE MORE OF MY OWN FRIENDS