I used to not be afraid of death didnt care whether i lived or died. But now after ive changed my whole outlook on everything i have to go to the hospital and have a cat scan tommarow it wouldnt be that bad if my doctor hadnt looked at me for about 5 minutes and said he had no idea whats wrong with me. I know im jumping to conclusions but when your ( Read more... )

For some reason here lately ive been overall happy its a feeling that had almost vanished from my memories but its weird its for no apparent reason. I miss my friends but they have all moved on in life and im unimportant and i think its the best if i just watch from afar maybe i can try not to let anyone close to me again because i wont have to ( Read more... )

The subject is just somethin i heard today its preety awesome or so i thought. It seems lately I have been daydreaming about the impossible i wish that i could go back in time and be an honerable Samurai or be the hero of the people and be a ninja. Have the chance to experiance the brotherhood of the knights, have thousands of fans as a gladiator. ( Read more... )

Its just that i embrace that statement if you live life fearing death you have never really lived at all. It seems im drowning in a pool of bitter sadness and theres nothing i can grasp to lift myself out and even if i could i dont think i have the strength... it seems all these journal entries of mine are depressing i appologize for that. I shot ( Read more... )

shew Prater is leavin at the end of next month ive only got a lil time to make up my mind i might go too he dont want me to but no ones gonna tell me what to do, even tho alot of special people who are dear to my heart almost had me talked out of it i cant let him go on his own. It seems that every day i grow lonlier and lonlier but i dont know ( Read more... )

I slept on it and talked to alot of people and i think that I wanna join the Army whether they will accept me or not i dont know but its something im serious about. The days have been eatin at my sanity slowly cuz nothing in life aside from college is goin right and even thats kind of stresin me out. I think im only gonna sign up for two years no ( Read more... )

Well i have a huge decision i have to make.... but i dunno. Jade wants me to stay but ive been lookin for a way out for a long time. I feel so out of place here like i wasnt ment to live in this time and place.... but to take my mind off of all this crap i stole this quiz thang off of Kirst.... Leave me a comment or dont whichever ( Read more... )

well i didnt quit updatin i guess i cant grow up oh will i wouldnt be me if i did. ^_^
welp i done this quiz thang that i saw on Kirst's lj so i decided id do it to even tho i didnt know what to put on grade tho lol

Its just what it says its my last entry, its high time i let go of all these childish dreams an ideas. I think ill do just what ive been trying to do just fading away. If your ever wantin to get in touch with me which im doubtin my # is 597-8936

Till we meet again
Brandon "Snake" Rasnake

well where do i start i sucked it up in football last night, i think i blew my knee out again but heck wit it. My sis Nickey came in from DC i got to see Gwen shew id give my life in a heartbeat for my neices they mean the world to me. ha ha ha its so weird that somethin so insignifigant such as a fortune cookie could cause me to change my way of ( Read more... )