Could I feel anymore unsure and awkward about my future? I doubt it. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so ruled by my emotions.

I just got rid of it. No more hope, no more wishing it was true or looking deeper for something that's not there. Today was just not my best day and this feeling won't go away. Sometimes I wonder if I could just fly away ... how much would change or be different, stay the same or what wouldn't happen... what would happen ( Read more... )

This was just a fun but awful weekend. It has not renewed my love for myself that is for sure. I need to figure out a way to fix this madness. Seriously. And I'm still being an idiot - I need to stop being so sentimental or hopeful. Sometimes it just makes you do stupid things.

Tonight was just another example of why I shouldn't be allowed to be out of the house hahaha!!! Such a clutz 1a. 2b playing guitar hero instead of helping with spanish homework... and 3c, keeping hope alive that he'll ask me or whatever. Geez.

I have returned. After years of neglect and self-loathing for having a journal type thing in the first place, I've come to realize that this released so much unneeded stress in my life. What has been added to my life? Facebook for one is HUGE, HA! And now so is Twitter. And why? Why do I feel the need to update my life for all to see? Well, I think ( Read more... )

If I am really enough, then why is this happening? If I was really enough, then there would be no issues, there would be no problems. I'm not asking for perfection, I'm not asking for anything but the truth and the best. I never started believing in myself until I met him, but after all is said and done, I really am nothing if this is how it has to ( Read more... )

A Kiss Errant ( Read more... )

I've been at the grocery store everyday for the past three or four days. I always forget to make a list. Can I just say, that reading the wonderful randomness that is a livejournal blog can make me the happiest little pacific islander this side of roscoe! I woke up a little grumpy this morning, and despite the fact that certain boys are stupid and ( Read more... )

Sometimes, it's just too hot to sit and think too hard and think about all of the things that are going wrong in your life. And even if it's not catastrophic, it seems so at the time. Then you get over it. I'm having a hard time getting over certain things, and I wish it would just go away. It's a constant nagging in the back of my head reminding ( Read more... )

There are reasons why i stopped updating. . . I thought I would be able to handle life without having to spill every single second of my day for all the world to see. But, I just had to get this thing off my chest. The pressure of pain isn't fun. And surprisingly, even though something huge happened before this past one, it's the most recent thing ( Read more... )