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[bluedaystryder]

How can I be so lonely when I have friends.  Its like a loneliness that can't be cured by being around people.  Its more of an overall hole in my soul.  I just don't know how to be sober.  How am I supposed to be a substance abuse counselor when I can't stop doing drugs.  How pathetic.  Maybe ill grow up.   Probably not though :-/

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[ineverlikedme]

I am lonely with friends too. Sometimes I feel like everyone else is a part of something that I'm just too sad to give a shit about. They talk on facebook about this and that and I'm like... that's great... I wish I had a soul enough to care. Substances are sometimes the only chance to escape. It's not about growing up. It's about something else. Different chemicals dancing around in your head.

You know, I find a special kind of comfort being around you that I don't around most of my friends or family. Someone who just GETS the wrench of unmitigated despair.

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[bluedaystryder]

I feel ya on that last part. I wish there were more people out there who actually get it.

[bluedaystryder]

That's what I'm hoping for. Some miracle to happen and one day I'll just understand how to live sober. Things have been worse with drugs in the past so I'm hoping that the little progress I've made will continue.

[iambe]

Maybe cuz I come from such an empty-hearted town,
Or maybe cuz some love of mine had really let me down,
But the only time I feel lonely is when others are around,
I just never end up knowing what to say

Dawes -- we saw this <3333

[bluedaystryder]

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