I miss those days. i liked feeling that maybe i was special. but as ive said, the weather has changed, and so has our opinions on the matter. why should i look for those few days again, when the four months is almost over?

http://www.thesneeze.com/mt-archives/cat_steve_dont_eat_it.php

and read this page too

...clips from my conversations tonight ( Read more... )

Spoke too soon. way too soon. i would just like to apologize to you all for being a particularly shitty person, and for being dramatic about it. just stop talking to me.

hey all you cats out there, things seem to be finally looking up/working out. I chased down Dell long enough so that theyre sending my $75.00 rebate now. And i will most likely get that job i applied for which means i can get out of the freeport bakery scene and not have to step into the "im looking for another job" pool. And this job im applying ( Read more... )

i just drove around for 2 hours in the fog. no, that is not a metaphor, but it is much how im feeling right now. i admit, that it was more like an hour driving aimlessly, then an hour of trying to get my ass out of citris heights (i have a history of getting lost there) and ending up in folsom. not on folsom road, but IN folsom. as in the ( Read more... )

we balance each other out only in the sense that our feelings opposite each other.

youre in love. im not.
im in love. youre not.
youre depressed. im happy and carefree as hell.
im lonely. you dont want my company.
you want me. i want someone else.

a few beers to settle the thrill i didnt get to enjoy.

i may have passed up a great opportunity. But that opportunity would have collapsed under my feet, i think. ever wonder why on the nights before you have to get up the earliest, the mind wanders and keeps you up the latest? ever hear someone say exactly what you did the night before, but both of you were alone and you just wish you could have said ( Read more... )

Why is it that time seems like its starting to separate at the seams? Clocks dont match up, numbers lagging and jumping ahead, slower faster, never quite the same as another. How is it that none of us really know what we want in any situation in life? why is it that we cant just make a decision? is it that we always think something better might ( Read more... )