maybe its just impossible to stop hating each other. or to stop being irritated, to stop being jealous, to stop finding reasons to fight, and to just love instead? when did it become so hard? where did our concentration just have to break? when both parties think its their fault, and yet think wrong has been done to them, how do they come together ( Read more... )

could it be? that the times are a-changin?

I think i would like to be alone all this weekend... [Alone with my thoughts, paintings, finances, dreams, writings, maybe a few or more beers, maybe some rum... and some music, and maybe some movies, and my two jobs] and whatever that includes. I'm really glad a had a beer tonight. And good food. And good company. And that for the next 4 days i ( Read more... )

if someone were to be a fly on my wall, they would find nothing too interesting. just a frustrated woman hopping from room to room, trying and escape the buzzing sounds.

But the daydreams, even the fly would be amazed by them.

So i met this guy tonight because i thought he was trying to steal my car. Turns out he was only walking his cat, bigfoot (this cat was huge). We had a sweet conversation about different cities and things to do around sacramento and brief intros to our lives. i actually have a neighbor now ( Read more... )

we all need to get away sometimes. IM going to follow the tracks and jump the first train with 4 engines i come across, and not even think about this place until friday. All the fresh air and sandy beaches will do me just fine. thank you for reminding me where it is i stand.

no it doesnt. not when i have to think about the kind of person i am.

for the past 3 hours, i read about alcohol. I read about different countries and specific drink histories, managing bars, california law regarding, different kinds of drinks, books on bartending, and general "factoidal" information. im tired, but still ridiculously intrigued.

its too bad the two people im in love with, are in love with their past.

but what can they say about me, except the same damn thing?

..and i'm still feeling sick after a week.
cut me please cuz i havent been able to bleed.