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Funny how one face from the past can remind you that you hate who you were, you hate who you are, and you hate who you will become.

god. i really am a fucking failure. i really am.

Happy Ney Year. Ive loss about eight pounds in the last week. severely restricting and throwing up the meals i eat around my parents right after. i hate that shit. i have to hide my behavior because the rents will send me to a therapist and a nutritionist again which i cannot deal with. although im getting back in the swing of things, i wish that ( Read more... )

Jessica and Nate (the Newlyweds!)


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                                                          ~*~Why is it that you cry?~*~


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What the Mirror Saw
I have an ongoing dream
and in it I am always beautiful
I can fit in all the pretty dresses
bring tears to all the eyes who bear witness
and smiles to the lips of all in my presence
angels of starvation guide me on this path
pretending not to notice the damage
I am doing to myself
my skin clings desperately to my bones
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Today sucked. thats the only word for it. i went to school and got the work that i was missing. they said since i was doing so "well", i may be able to come back after christmas break. i love how everyone thinks im doing okay, but really i am sinking lower and lower into the infinite blackness. everyone said that i looked good.. and really stressed ( Read more... )