goodbye everyone. i love you all so much.

ok guys well my journal is now friends only. sorry. leave me a comment and i'll add you. for those of you without lj sorry!! so basically the main reason i am making this friends only is because i don't want people that i know knowing all about my depression and eating disorder and such. im sick of everyne telling me how wrong it is. its my life, ( Read more... )

today was blah. went to church tonight. saw everyone. oman love goes out to eva baxter, (ahhh she is so gorgeous it makes me sick) anyway, kelly was showing off her newfound skinnyness and she pulled up her shirt to reveal her pierced belly button. eva goes: "kelly, hunnie, did you realize that you have a waterfall of faux diamonds coming out of ( Read more... )

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oh my god i am so scared right now!!! :/ i just heard parts of my parents convo and i heard my dad say " so what did aljfd (didn't catch the name) say?" mom said. "she is going into a treatment center tomorrow." oh god do i hope that is not me. i know that my nutritionist has been talking about hospitalization or treatment centers again, (honestly ( Read more... )

today i went to American for a fucking three hour practice. at least erica wasn't there to bitch at me. ms austin was there. she ahs lost so much weight. i think she was on the south beach diet. anyway she brought her kids who were just so adorable. emma looks just like her with blonde hair. gorgeous kids. anyway after that i helped deliver ( Read more... )

Today was interesting. I had to see Leslie, my nutritionist, which was interesting i guess. she had to bring her boys, who are 18-month old twins, who were sick. :( they were sooo adorable. our goal for this week is to eat out once a week and order something normal. ummmm thanks but no. after that fiasco i went to cheerleading, which sucked!! ahh ( Read more... )

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