Alone and Lost and Feeling Sorry for Myself

[bluesangle]

This is my second attempt at writing in this because now I am unsure of myself of who I am.
Last night something happened to me and I am not sure what. How did I go from being a nice guy ( so I thought ) to being one that sucks so bad in life.I always thought I was a honorable  type of guy. I have tried doing things I  thought were right, behaving

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[babs4d]

I need to explain to you something.. how i feel. It's not like against you or anything. And I want you to know that I respect more than anybody or anything else i've ever known. i love you SO much. Everything will be ok.

By the way.. that promise you made to me meant the WORLD to me. Like.. it filled me with so much happiness. but yes. It meant a lot to me.. and means even more that I know how much you truly love me.

I wanna talk to you more about the "Last night I felt ashamed of myself and that is scary I felt hurt, lonely, disappointed.I feel as if I have no dignity or self respect, and if I have none for myself how can I hope that other see these things in me" I want to understand that fully. Like why you felt ashamed and i don't want you to feel lonely cause I love you and i'm always here for you.

[bluesangle]

This Journal was about my feelings on what happened, It was a pitty I had to lose myself respect so that you new I truly loved you, As for the rest its for me to deal with.