Hah, it's been like two months since I updated this shit. Things are good, but this is sad. :(

( This is how I deal with my grief )

So I'm not much better, the pain's just moved into mostly my right leg, though my back and left hip are still giving me trouble. Physical therapy doesn't seem to be helping a whole lot, but I hope that's just because it takes time to fix whatever it is that's wrong with me. I went back to the doctor today after the pain got pretty bad, not ER bad ( Read more... )

My birthday was yesterday and I had a fantastic time, despite spending Tuesday night in the ER because my back completely went out on me. Porterhouse serves delicious filet mignon, that's for damn sure. Thanks to everyone who came by Mercury to hang out for a bit and have some drinks ( Read more... )

Shit got all weird all of a sudden.

Goddamnit.

Fuck my body. I hate it.

Everything always hurts and I think I might have to quit smoking because my blood pressure is fucked up and I mean seriously I am twenty fucking years old, why is my shit so fucked up? I don't abuse my body all that much, do I? Fuck. I want to go sit in the shower and cry this is so fucking retarded.

I can't get off the couch for the life of me.

I need to get out of this nasty funk but quick.

haha jesus christ.

I woke up at 9 am on my couch. I never even made it upstairs to my bed. Oops.

Drinking is bad for you, kids.

I want to be emo about some things but instead I'm just going to thank god I still had half an ativan left and just go ahead and let that take over.

Kisses!

It's raining and I have to walk to work. I slept maybe 4 hours, I think. I have 19 hours before I'm done with work and school, though I do have a 4 hour break. So that's only 14 hours of work and then an hour of class.

Fucking shoot me now. I hope a bus hits me on my way to work, that way I can get some fucking sleep.

Also, today sucks. Hard

Oh man Tool.

Jesus christ. There were lasers. Holy mother of goddamn hell ass christ goddamn. It was ridiculous and my legs were jelly afterwards. Amazing fucking show.