This is the fourth time I have tried to post in the past hour, had the whole thing written and then deleted it. I am annoying myself because all of my posts are about angsty teen romance. Unfortunately I wrote three solid posts not about that topic and erased each because of reasons I will keep to myself. I apologize. I am not in a good mood, so I ( Read more... )

Adaptation:
Donald: I loved sarah,charles. it was mine, that love. I owned it. Sarah didn't have the right to take it away. I can love whoever i want.
Charlie: But...she thought you were pathetic.
Donald: That was her business, not mine. You are what you love, not what loves you. that's something I figured out a long time ago.

Yes, the subject of this entry is a quote from a Jewel song, so what?New Year's Eve was somhow lacking. I did not really have much fun at all. I guess I don't like having to pretend to be crazy and sex obsessed around Becky and Eric, but they expect it so I do it. Also, Becky was looking violently attractive and that made this current loneliness ( Read more... )

So I am waiting for something right now. While I wait I will pass the time with another LiveJournal post. I just read parts of Alex's Xanga. He had some insights into his own fear of commitment, and it got me thinking about my own fear of commitment. The only woman I have ever been able to commit to in a relationship is Lex. Now I have had numerous ( Read more... )

Seems like every revolution ends in casualty, singin' whoa oh oh oh my Eponine ( Read more... )

LiveJournal reminds me to carry out my original high minded goals. Step 1) Get a sword (I am thinking of upgrading this to a more efficient, but equally symbolic weapon such as a lightsaber.) Step 2) Cleanse the Earth of all those that I deem inferior. It is a long list and I think that the world would be better for their extermination. I am not ( Read more... )

I do not know how you walk the line while trying to commit to a new set of virtues. What if the only way to make a person feel better is to confront another person. I would be considered a bad guy if I defend person A's interests, but how can I live with myself when person A, whom I love to all ends, is in pain. Oh well, I suppose we will all ( Read more... )

I have decided to become a better person many times before, but now I am officially posting my plans online. Hopefully my adoring fan base will be able to encourage me to follow through with my high minded goals. After reading McSweeney's post about romanticism, specifically the parts about having unattainable crushes, really inspired me. I wish ( Read more... )

I find myself frequently starting posts, getting distracted, and then coming back to them an hour or so later and thinking "what the the hell was I thinking when I started this." That should explain at least some of my jumping around and the fact that sometimes they wrap up rather suddenly. Oh well, this isn't written for the readers anyways, ( Read more... )

Anyways it is nearly twelve. The night is young and I am bored. It has been a half hour since I began this e-mail and I am only at the third sentence. I got off the phone with Mia about forty minutes ago and I felt very frusterated. She always acts like she has these brilliant revelations about my mental state and my emotions and tells me about ( Read more... )