I'm gonna try and do a complete 180... I don't want it to be a 360... I need help, and someone to share all of my wasted compassion with... I need someone to love. Someone love me?

I don't really know how to put my feelings into words...I guess I could begin by saying my life has not gotten better, nor do I see it in my future to be so. I am still lost... though on the verge of understanding a new feeling I've encountered lately. This feeling, idea, imaginative spark of my own insane reality... it's a vision that all is ( Read more... )

I've really needed to vent for a while now... Haven't had time... haven't even had time to just think. Not untill last night. Got home from work, dropped cid with my brother and lindsey, stayed up all night thinking, and tripping, and wondering why. I remember why I love work now... thinking only makes my depressed. Well... even more depressed. ( Read more... )

Whoops! Guess not!

Do you ever just forget things? Memory by memory my life if erasing itself from my mind. I don't remember who I was, or the things I did. I just have a blur with some peaks that I can still see... I had generally stopped caring about myself and life; it just does not seem to matter anymore, but I believe I have found something I had thought was ( Read more... )

Um.... boo!

I've noticed a few things lately.... Since I've been working so much, I haven't had much time to think about girls... so I haven't felt as insane. The only time I have to think about girls now is at school, which isn't too bad because I dont see the girls that drive me insane that often. Girls suck, you may not think so, but, then again, you're ( Read more... )

YAY!!!!!! MY BROTHER'S BACK!!! It's only been a week sence I've seen him... but it's felt like a lifetime...

MY BROTHER IS IN JAIL!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! AAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! I WANNA BREAK HIM OUT!!!!! FUCKING PIGS!!!!!! I WANNA KILL THEM ALL!!!!!! I'm moving to the ocean.

Someone much wiser, and much happier than I, once told me that change must be willed. No matter how much I said I couldn't, she strove to believe there was a better in me. I believe that any such change that you wish to endear is very much in your grasp. You have only to reach for it.