Diaspora creates a gap between where you come from and where you're going that can stratch your present thin. We have to be careful of this.

Great hurting leads to great healing, the latter where attention should be paid.

You can build character with a wrench. In a few weeks I'll be testing a hammer. I'll get back to you.

As I continue to move my body in the same patterns over and over, into the depths of fatigue extreme enough to send my nervous system into crisis, my body builds new tissue that reflects the paths I've been moving. Muscle traces motion. Strange thing is, as I develop, certain parts lag behind. Like in certain parts of my back, there are recesses ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I've been so fucking pretentious. I've been trying to mask my feelings with my intellect. I've been really sad. For a long fucking time. First step to recovery, right? Cool.

Intellectual explanation inhibits cognitive connection, sits between the mind and body and talks so fucking loud the other two couldn't hear each other if they screamed.

Because of the fact of limited resources, Brian. You see, everybody wants to be the star. Fact of it is, whenever success is near, jealousy is also. Some see you doing things they only wish they could and they (not so) subtly discourage, in hopes that you'll slow down and let them feel comparatively stronger again. Others, though, others will ( Read more... )

Why does it feel like the world knows what I want and intentionally gets in my way.

"How is your breathing?"

Funnily I had forgotten to keep track. "I have a deviated septum, so nothing much comes in through my nose."

Maybe that's why I've been choking on mouthguards and stepping out over sore jaws for the last 6 years.

"You need a trick for that."

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one of the hardest things to take is advice.