I woke up this morning and the sun was shining through sheer curtains and I could hear the surf crashing on the shore from the open window. I turned my head and for the first time in a long time, he wasn't next to me. But I smiled anyway, I knew where he was ( Read more... )

I don't even know if I can describe how amazing Fiji is. Words like amazing, gorgeous and beautiful don't even begin to describe it. I've never seen water so clear or blue in my life. And the sand - it's just so white. I have to admit, I spent most of the first couple days on the beach. That's the life, I'll tell you. Ryan made me leave the ( Read more... )

Sometimes the time passes so quickly, I don't realize a month has gone by. I look at the calender for whatever reason and it's like a slap in the face. It seems like just yesterday Ryan was starting Idol and now it's over already ( Read more... )

I really really hate when people think they know Ryan better than I do. Yes, there are people who obviously know him pretty well. His mom and dad and his sister, for example. But other than that? I don't think anyone really knows him like I do. I know what makes him tick, his ins and outs, his little idiosyncrasies that make him different from ( Read more... )

Ryan and I have been hiding out alone for the past couple weeks. With Idol's live shows starting again, he's been crazy busy and when he's not working, we're mostly spending time alone. It's nice, really. He's been busy with the show and his radio show and this clothing line thing he's doing, so when we get the time to spend together, we take it ( Read more... )

The week leading up to the Grammy Awards is always so busy and stressful for me. Since I'm a correspondent for E!, I have to book times to tape segments, I have to go and help edit them, and add that into the final dress fittings, hair and makeup prep and finding the perfect shoes or accessories and by the time the awards roll around, I'm so tired ( Read more... )

I don't know if there's one word to describe this past week. None of the words I can think of are broad enough to define it ( Read more... )

Ryan woke me up at the crack of dawn this morning, but it was because I asked him to. He had to catch an early flight to New York, and he's leaving from there to head to Nashville before flying to Australia. So if I didn't get up and take him to the airport, I wasn't going to see him for a week. And no, I don't count his three hour layover in ( Read more... )

We started the week in New York. Ryan had to do some appearances, first on Letterman and then he did Live with Regis and Kelly. It only took a day for that, but we spent the weekend there before flying home. And I apologize for the sweaters that he wore. I tried to tell him not to, but he didn't listen. Clearly I needed to throw out more of his ( Read more... )

What a busy weekend! Hell, busy week ( Read more... )