Just got out of my home group NA meeting ( Read more... )

So I'm experiencing this new thing called respect, and it's fuckin great ( Read more... )

I get it now ( Read more... )

Better now than later ( Read more... )

So here comes another inherently incomplete train of thought called my day. My first impulse getting home was to zone out and play Warcraft III, but I'm going to do this instead, because I think it's good for me ( Read more... )

Stan just dropped a bombshell and told me that I should write about it so here goes. It was probably of the most intense conversation of my life, and by conversation I mean me shutting the fuck up and listening. Intentionally ( Read more... )

December 17, 2008 ( Read more... )

I'm trying to figure out exactly what I want out of my return to journaling. Picking where I want to journal is one thing I'm thinking about. I have an account on Icarus, one on DeviantArt and of course one here. The only real appeal to Icarus for me is that Desirae is on there and she joined after I linked to it. That's not really an issue though ( Read more... )

Here I am now, sitting at this laptop one week later and the experience seems very far back and somewhat surreal, but I feel different right now than I did before that night. The last week has been a blur of confusing messages between her and I, though we're communicating just fine now... but something changed in me. I became very depressed for ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want to do to myself right now, but none of the ideas I've been entertaining strike me as good. All the things I can think of will neither help me or make anything better. I feel really fucked up right now. I'm not used to feeling like this ( Read more... )