<3 jiffy otazo

9/29/05

the truth is...he brought this family together. It may seem silly but I look at see the sad faces and us all slipping away and I know. He knows. Laying under his yellow flowers in the backyard.....<3 he was my love. he is my love ( Read more... )

my journal will not be locked any more...its time to let some info out into the world. I figured out the groupo of people who were harrasing me and it made me a bit sad but whatever I'm sure in the end they will burn in fucking hell for saying horrible things to somone who is extremly depressed...not smart fuckers. Yes...so..I don't really keep up ( Read more... )

my journal is offically locked ( Read more... )

Been doin some thinking latly bout stuff. Yea been really truely insaignly happy latley. Still been thinking about things because thats what I do. In my head i space out with things that make me smile like the beach and puppie and babies. I think about Love and how happy I am to have had experienced it even if each time ended not to well, and bout ( Read more... )

today hung out with erin, tasha and bones. Went to startford to pick up bones got lost then went to erins went to the beach and we walked around and man her town is so nice. Thats right erin i love ur town. So much fun. It was just so simple and beautiful and wow. Yea I was really happy today. I think its because of the sait johns worth I'm taking ( Read more... )

yea talkin to martine cuz shes too cool!!Yea layin on my bed just talkin. Thinking about my person whos not really my person who i can't seem to get into contact with to tell him how i feel about him. I'm tired and starting to lose hope. I don't understand>maybe its a sign. Maybe I'm not supose to be with him or maybe its being delayed for some ( Read more... )

noding my head and smiling>i feel really good today. Maybe it was the florida sun or the music I took back from mia and julios apt. I'm not quite sure what it is but it feels really good. Maybe tomorow wil sux or someone will say somthing mean but I feel really safe right now>dare i say free. Yea thats just me and now i'm guna listen to the eels ( Read more... )

Ok I think people should perpair themselves. I'm guna get a little deep for a second and well..the only person I told this to was tom at rca and yea. So Todays friday right. I stayed home because I was tired and I didn't want to get up and go to my own personal hel. Not today. I'm so tired and drained and ashamed. So This is where i spill abot what ( Read more... )

So i've given up on all of them, all of my guy obsesions are pritty much out and gone.I havn't given up on the one person i said i would give up on though. I should give up on him but i'm just so lost. Hes so..i dono. I'm so pathetic i swear. Its like i ask for people to break my heart. But i guna just do like crack said and be straight with him. ( Read more... )

today while arguing with my mom i slamed my face against a door. I'm a little swollen and red but generally ok. Everything was ok today. I hung out with becca in video and flirted with doug and britney.It was fun but i found myself at times jelous cuz i have a jelousy problem so i guess thats y. Um yea class was totally unproductive hung around did ( Read more... )