i had pasta, rice and cake last nite. haha . i was sickly full. i didn't mind eatin it cuz i know i'm not eaten all weekend. i feel very sick...i probly have a flu or some stomach bug or sumthin....i missed a week of school
everythin else is OK. wish i had a bit more energy, xx

 -havent eaten in3 days, not one morsel in my mouth.
i am still quite convinced food is evil. i'm losing weight but i dont even care anymore really. i dont know how to explain it. 
i feelvery sick.

I cannot believe all these years and all these times I've binged and purged everything because of my love for food...or my obsession or WHATEVR it was that made me eat large amounts...food is SO not worth it. i feel like i'm having an epiphany. I mean, how could I have been so blind and foolish?
Food is an attachment, like an abusive husband.  ( Read more... )

It's over food. You are a LIAR. You MISLEADED me in times of need. You are gross and vile. Disgusting. Bathed in beautiful scents and aromas, colors and flavors but its all a LIE. And I won't consume you anymore. It's all your fault, why my body is this way. I hate you forever, and I am not consuming you tomorrow because I am so disgusted at your ( Read more... )

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 -burnt 180 approx. calories in gym today and about 130 yesterday. did cardio + yoga. sweated a lot haha
- i ate spinach broccoli zucchini, chocolate almonds dark chocolate and some egetable thing to be honest.
lots of liquids
i feel so fat i feel like such a failure, i dont understand why it has to be such a struggle!!!! i hate this!!!
it isn't ( Read more... )

Dear Stomach,
Yeah hi. It's me, the body. Yeah listen, I know you love food and you love it in unGodly amounts but listen, we have 20 lbs to heave off of ASAP so you cannot get all that food anymore. As much as yu whine and scream for it, you cannot have it! You have to cooperate and enjoy the yucky V8 vegetable cocktail, veggies and fruits I'm ( Read more... )

 its saturday and i feel a lot less stressed
i didn't eat much last nite , went to bed moderately hungry which is good
I cut up apple and forgot to eat it for bfast
i had 2 eggs without oil or butter n a couple bites of spinach but 2 salty
n water
hit the gym burned 100 calories ( not a lot, =( ..and then did yoga)
went to Mums and ate homecooked chicken ( Read more... )

i am such a fat f***. 
at least i did OK today, for a new start. my hike/jog at High Park was good. I ate veggies n fruit today only, and eggs without oil or butter. I'm trying to ingest as much water as I can cuz I need to just flush these calories and fat away!!!!!!!!!Exercise makes me feel good, I am hitting the gym tomorrow in the morning. I ( Read more... )

I feel really good to day. Its sunny and beautiful ( Read more... )