So it's been about a year or so since we've broken up and you're right here next to me, sleeping so beautifully. I had forgotten how peaceful it was to just watch you as you sleep. We're trying this whole friends thing, and I love just having you in my life again. I have missed you so much it's unreal. The hardest thing I've ever done in my life ( Read more... )

So I've been talking to Bill LaDelle for the past two hours or so and we've touched base with so much that's been on my mind lately, and it really felt good to just vent to a good friend. That's exactly the point of the entry; I'm a GOOD FRIEND. I don't need to have life figured out right now, nor do I need a boy to make me feel worthy anymore. I' ( Read more... )

Story of my life, in a nutshell. I've lived, loved, and lost. It's simple really. I'm just simple. A simple boy, in a cruel and inhumane world. My life thus far - not so simple. Lets rewind to July 25th, 1984 ( Read more... )

I kinda just wanna bitch yet I wanna gloat as well. I've had so much good happen lately, but it's made me develop such an ego lately it's redic. I just won't let myself settle for less than exactly what I want....in any sense at all. Boys, cars, work - all of the above. I have now paid top dollar for the perfect car that suits me, and put even more ( Read more... )

So all in all, I usually use LJ to pretty much bitch about how life sucks and so on. This entry is quite a bit different. Life is pretty good for me lately. I went to Necto tonight with Robert and had such an amazing time, we even took pics. I am honestly so surprised at so many things in my life lately. Gorgeous boys that I thought would not even ( Read more... )

I've had quite the emotional roller coaster in the past few months of my life. I've loved and lost more times lately than I thought was humanly possible. My last relationship had scorned me so badly that I thought I would never recover. Anyways, here I am, a few months later, so much stronger than I ever thought possible. The only question I have ( Read more... )

I'm too embarrassed to post this anywhere else. My number has jumped from 9 to 17 since the last time I fell in love. Should I be so ashamed, or does this happen to anyone who was scorned like I was? I just hate how attached I got to the last two or three. =( As hard as I tried to make sex more than just fucking, I guess they were just a hot piece ( Read more... )

I guess that the only reason I'm writing in here at the moment is to gloat and brag about how absolutely amazing life has been for me lately. I've worked really hard to get here and it's almost surreal how much I have accomplished overall. Not only have I gotten to where I wanted to be with my career, I have done what is needed to get my social ( Read more... )

So I just changed my password on here. It was "Adam4life". I mean really? Lets get serious and move on. For real.

If I really thought about it, do I really know what love is? I look deep into my past and figure out the things that hurt me, and it still lies true. I look at memoirs of my past and present, and still I am confused on who I am today. To those that I whispered I love you, did I really mean it, or was it the feeling I had at the time? I know of one ( Read more... )