I can't get myself together enough to get ready this morning. i'm too upset. I need to knock it off.

I've go so much going on right now. my career is FINALLY taking off and i've got everything with that to worry about. but i can't help but distress over matt. he says he needs his space, yet he tells me not to worry. I can't be spending nights like this, not right now. I can't be sitting up crying. WOndering what i did wrong, what i can do to make ( Read more... )

So today is my first day with the kiddos. I'm feeling an emotion similar to nervous but i wouldn't call it nervous. I'm really tired. Getting up at 5 am will do that to anyone though. I thought it would take me longer to get ready than it did. I have half an hour before I leave....so here we are killing time. I was at school for like 10 hours on ( Read more... )

I start tomorrow! I can't wait! I'm worried as to what's going to happen to me next school year. There's no promise that I'll have a job. I suppose if this position is still open it'll be mine, but with the economy the way it is, no one is really sure what's going to happen. I'm sure it will all work out. I just hope i don't have to leave peoria to ( Read more... )

awesome news! I got a job as a kindergarten teacher! I'm so excited! I'm actually replacing the teacher that was there before me. She's quitting, so i'm a little scared to take over her classroom but there are less that 80 school days left so even if it's totally BAD i won't have to be there that long. But i'm confident that this is something i can ( Read more... )

what a shitty holiday season this was. I'm so glad that it's all over and done with. No more feeling bad for not getting to spend a holiday with matt. NYE was probably the worst one I have ever had. And I actually did get to spend it with matt. He was in a horrible mood all night. and....thinking about it makes me want to cry. which i can't do ( Read more... )

once we got past the fighting and yelling christmas turned out to be ok. The rest of the weekend was pretty good too. I still miss Matt. He comes back today at 9. YAY! I remember when mike used to go away for work...it was bad and i hated it. But he did it like once of twice a month. This isn't so bad but i really wish i could have gone with him. ( Read more... )

I love holidays that force us to spend time with and money on people we don't really like.

Wait a minute...that's exactly why I HATE this time of year!
You'd think that my mom could act like a normal person just one day a year. yeah right...

God is today over yet?

i fucking hate the holidays. they force you to spend time with people you don't particularly like because you're related to them. I can't wait for it all to be over. And matt is leaving for dallas for 4 days. I wish i could go with him. I'm going to miss him tons. we got to spend time with each other last night and hopefully we will today before ( Read more... )

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