I have an enormous sense of guilt that's always with me. I don't know why, but I feel like I've always done something wrong and people will always hate me, or find reasons to hate me because of things that I have done. Things that aren't even really my fault ( Read more... )

I'm at my old bosses cabin in flagstaff. it's beautiful up here, and my room is AMAZING. it's seriously nicer than any room i have ever slept in. ever. balcony outside my door, bathtub and shower in my room, a HUGE closet, and a fireplace all in my room! this house is awesome. not to mention how pretty the snow is. i'm supposed to leave tomorrow ( Read more... )

my second post in one day ( Read more... )

oh friday night.

The crew went to see deadmau5 at myst on friday. Loved every single second of it! Danced my ass off and my feet STILL hurt. That's how i know i had a good time.

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i am in such a bad mood ( Read more... )

what's the big deal with twilight? i don't get it. i know nothing about it, probably because i'm so cut off from tv. i never watch it at home because the only one i could watch is in the lving room and i hate the way the couch is set up in accordance with the television. and at matts house he doesn't even have his tv set up to do anything besides ( Read more... )

matt started reading my journal the other day and said i use the word fuck a lot. i should work on that. Not too lady like. speaking of matt we broke up on friday. for about 2 hours or something ( Read more... )

I still feel pretty much the same as i have been. i have no motivation to do anything job wise. It's so dissapointing that i don't even feel like trying. I guess i'll just get any old job when i graduate and then get a teaching job in the fall ( Read more... )

i feel all shaky and twidgety today. last night matt and i went to sedona just to go up there and chill where his friend ruben was playing. ive decided i really like the name ruben. is that the spanish version of Robert ( Read more... )

her response to me was "blah fucking blah i don't even care anymore. " obviously you do care since you FUCKING BLOCKED me....bitch ( Read more... )