Again.  I have done no work. Nothing. I just went to school, came home, surfed pro ana sites. Thats it. That is my life. I know i have so much work to do but i just cant bring myself to sit there and do. God, i am such a lazy fat-ass cow. I mean, i dont even exercise i just sit on my huge arse and surf the web. Every day. That is what my pathetic ( Read more... )

 okay. So my bessie mate Ellie said to me (and i quote) 'i wish i could loose weight like you. Its not fair.' If only she knew. Every lunchtime she sits there will sandwiches, two cupcakes and crisps. Every time she tells me she is going on a diet. If only she knew. I never even eat over 500 calories a day, never mind bloody cakes. She keeps asking ( Read more... )

Dont you just hate them. I swear mine are tring to make me fat! This morning my dad made me oats-so-simple oatmeal WITH milk!! So the cals went from 135 to 216. That so many extra cals that i certainly wasnt planning on. So i had to change my WHOLE day thanks to him. He also hasnt dropped of my strawberries that i got or my salsa which i want for ( Read more... )

 8. Monday - 400 cals

6.30: Get up, Get dressed, make it look like i have eaten breakfast, pack 'other breakfast' and lunch.

7.00: 1 Hour swimming

8.15: Get changed from swimming, eat breakfast of (1 fat-free yogurt - 73, 1 cereal bar - 60)= 133 + 1 bottle water

8.30: Go to school, do homework or schoolwork

9.00 - 11.15: Lessons

11.15: Breaktime, eat ( Read more... )

1.Monday: 500cals

6.30am: Get up, get dressed, make it looklike i have had breakfast. Check daily allownace for ABC. Get dinner made the night before.

7.00: Go swimming for 1 hour

8.15:  Get changed from swimming, eat fruit or fat free yogurt for breakfast, Throw away parts of dinner not going to eat. ( cereal bar - 60, fat-free danone cherry yogurt ( Read more... )

Aaahhh..hunger. My old friend. That empty rumbiling in the pit of my stomach that i love so much. After stuffing my face yesterday in a full blown, all day, stress-induced binge i felt so bloated and sick but low and behold this afternoon that beautiful, knawing hinger sets in. I love it. Everybody else needs to stuff there face but not me. I feel ( Read more... )

I had an exam. I got stressed. I binged. Enough said.

So my father sat me down today after he found all the food i had stuffed in my school bag. Why he was going through it i dont know but i cant belive i forgot to flush it all. I am so fucking stpid. I'm gonna have to be more careful. I played it down and everything, i hope he was convinced. I am terrified he will tell my mum as she already knows ( Read more... )

Man i hate how my mood goes up and down. I just feel like a huge, fat, lardarse. I dont deserve to be called ana. I am a faliure. Thats it. Nothing else but faliure. You thing i would be happy. I have lost a whole stone and i am down to 9st. I havent been that weight for a long time. Yet, i feel so down. In fact i feel the worst i have in weeks. I ( Read more... )

I feel like nothing but a fat, fucking faliure. I have  only done like 20mins of step-aerobics and 10mins Hatha Yoga and thats it. I just feel so drained and low. Not depressed as such but low and empty. I am too scared to weigh myself and just feeel like a total, utterly faliure. I will never to my target weight, not like this. I am not the smart ( Read more... )