inside, outside
it's all the same
my love keeps growing
in ways that go beyond
anything you can imagine
and at the same time it is nothing, nothing to make a fuss about, shhh, (blessings) and keep it to yourself
keep you to yourself
and explode into a thousand fragments
shooting across the skyline,
into the universe
into me

roll the dice,
flip the coin;


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stare into a glass of water, or stare into the fire. stare into the sky and its clouds until they morph and your heart skips a beat. i stare into his skin a lot and the sight is amazing. i stared into his eyes today and saw rainbows reflecting, like an oilpainting. i didn't stare into the mirror, i know what i look like and confirmation of that ( Read more... )

schijnpregnancy, with bellies getting bigger and lots of future tellers. read the stars and read my heart; i don't think it will happen this time. but i do imagine what it would be like. perfect ( Read more... )

what if you see it all coming,
and you see it all ending

sometimes i grab your fingers and make you touch my face, feel my soft glowing cheeks, and then you smile and press your lips against my forehead.

sometimes i picture things

do you know how many times i considered greeting the knife to save you? or how often i thought of choking you, strangling you, after your last sigh of relief, of sin, to save you from the next; cause it won't ever get any better than that. that one fucking moment. it slipped ( Read more... )

(it's barely winter but everything is already dying)


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..and i found myself, losing my, short term memory. one sentence was said and while the second one was being said the previous one slipped my mind. i do remember parts of it, fragments of the moments i looked at you and asked you what i just said. or what had just happened. or where the hell we were, what we were doing and what we had done. i didn' ( Read more... )