no more sad entries i promise. this time i mean it.

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This cold winter night,
walking in the streets
seeing your face across every peek
isnt what it seems
my heart is beating
but in my mind,
i know im loosing it in all kinds.
my thoughts are telling me what to do
and i wish i couldnt listen to them
because they're ruining me.
my own mind can't make up my dreams
i've been here before
and i'm quite aware im dieing
i ( Read more... )

on these cold days, with the wind blowing hard, the sun shining bright, makes me feel the lonliest i have felt all night.

i have made my self a deal, i am going to just wake up and go to school or do whatever i do, and just be the happiest i can. because you know what i am not going to be sad anymore. i am not going to cry anymore. i may have my moods where i want to be alone, and i am not going to feel bad that i am alone because i want to be. and im sick of feeling ( Read more... )

i have made my self a deal, i am going to just wake up and go to school or do whatever i do, and just be the happiest i can. because you know what i am not going to be sad anymore. i am not going to cry anymore. i may have my moods where i want to be alone, and i am not going to feel bad that i am alone because i want to be. and im sick of feeling ( Read more... )

okay wow, i lied i really can't handle something, and i don't know what to do. because if i dont be friends with him, i can't be anything else with him. OH MY GOSH!!! WHAT THE HECK. i am just going to be alone. that is it. im not going to try to be friends with anyone else. because i try and they dont try back, i dont need any other confussing ( Read more... )

i like My Chemical Romance, but i never use to really like them? im not sure if that is good or bad haha.

so i was at school, and for the first time all this year, i felt lonely, and i don't know why.   becasue i choose to be that way, and its not like i need to always have someone with me because there usually isn't anyone with me, it was weird, i ( Read more... )

i really need to change, i have problems, and for everybody who told me i don't i wish you told me i did, becasue sometimes i really do, and i do not know why i am the way i am. i dont even care what i did, because at this point i have messed up so much, its just kind of funny. so i just thought i would let everybody know that i am trying to change ( Read more... )

im so lost. i have this feeling in the pit of my stomach, and it has never left my systems for years, i actually missed being sad, when i wasnt sad, that is how sad it has gotten, i dont know what i do wrong. i don't. why can't i just have a good life, and be happy, like alot of people. every sad song is starting to make me happy, every love song ( Read more... )