I feel like i'm in a bit of a pickle, my asshole side tells me to do one thing and then there's this little voice that says "no please don't ignore your problems" i think it's called a conscience. what the hell when did i get one of those?! things where so much easier when we where younger, i don't like you so i'll stop talking to you until you get ( Read more... )

took a little stroll down memory lane tonight, it started with looking at old pictures of friends then was accompanied by songs from bands i frequently listened to in my late teens to early twenties and along with the laughs and smiles it also struck a sour note. something wasn't settling right with me, i started thinking of all the things i would ( Read more... )

found out via social network that my brother proposed to his ex now current girlfriend who has cheated on him three times. my dad believes we should keep our mouths shut, let him figure it out on his own and hope for the best. i'm all for letting him figure things out because if he's at all as stubborn as i am it doesn't matter what anyone says he' ( Read more... )

money seems to always be a concern, it's true what they say money is the root of all evil. is it better to be broke and need more or have it and want more? just found out the company i work for is going through changes and everything is up in the air. seems to be the constant common in my life, as always my personal life is up in the air as well. i ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm at a bit of a crossroads and i'm not quite sure what to do. i've been thinking a lot about all the time that has been wasted, about how things could have been different if i wasn't so stubborn. and then i look in elliot's little face and i could care less about any of it, all the crap all the stress it's gone. and for those few ( Read more... )

it's strange how things can turn around in the course of a week. people have time to cool, think and turn things around for the better. now the new challange... talk the bf out of moving to st. louis. i would much rather live here:

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that has seemed to be the mood. i'm fine with things and i'm focused on elliot and i then i get a phone call and i get a little nauseous and i'm back to square one. i hate when people try to take a step back and be friends... i don't want to be your friend. if i did i never would have started a relationship with you. i can't talk on the phone and ( Read more... )

yet again.

i started my new job today and i realized something. the thing i dreaded before i turned out to love. i always thought a 40 hour a week jobs would be the death of me, maybe not.

i don't understand why we do the things we do sometimes. why are we with people who clearly don't want a future with us. confusion sets in. being scared of commitment causes you to change you mind. yet you're the one who wanted to be committed. i'm fine with the way things are but at the end of the day i have to sit and wonder if there is a future ( Read more... )