Watching all the people stumble into the dorms as I observe quietly from my desk at work makes me realize how completely annoying people are when they are drunk and I am sober. It makes me pity anyone who is sober that hangs out with me while I am drunk. God they are so obnoxious I can't even handle it!!!

Oh why don't I ever know when to quit!!! Every time I get so drunk I am delirious I swear that next time I won't drink as much. It's a nice thought, but it never happens! Castro to say the least was very interesting. It was a sea of people all pushing and shoving to get nowhere in particular. Everything was blurred and moving so fast, I can only ( Read more... )

Umm...yeah I was out of control last night. I consumed entirely too much alcohol. I'm sure that I ran around the party like an asshat but I can't really remember. I know that if I could recall exactly what I did or what I said I would be utterly embarrassed but since I can't I'm going to pretend that I acted totally cool the whole time. Laying in ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in awhile and I don't really have much to say. I just wanted everyone to know that i'm still here!!! I will update again soon when I feel like there is something to write about. Oh I'm going on a date with my model boy tomorrow so I will probably write about that soon. :)

Sarah and I decided to have a digital photo shoot today!!! I used to have the pics on here but I can't figure out how to do it because I am a free user so oh well.

I met my dream man today. He was a model at a fashion show I was doing and to say the least, he is gorgeous!! To my surprise he came up to me after the show was over and asked if I wanted to go to coffee. I tried desperately hard to act natural as I casually said yes but he would have to have been blind not see my jaw drop down to the floor. Coffee ( Read more... )

I am growing steadily more interested in my Berkeley church boy. This is bothersome to me for several reasons. The first is obviously the fact that in order to see him, I have to take muni for an hour and half just to get from San Francisco to Berkeley. Another problem is that he is so annoyingly perfect. His father is the paster, he is the young ( Read more... )

I honestly believe that you will never be given more than you can handle. Yesterday I was thinking my career was over because I missed one audition and today I totally came back and redeemed myself. I went to a fitting for a modeling job I have in San Francisco. While I was at the fitting, the designer for Joe Boxer asked me to be a full time model ( Read more... )

I hate myself today. All I ever do is bitch and complain about how much I want to be an actress and how if I was only given the chance, I could be the best actress ever. So I had a movie audition today and what do I do?!?! What do I fucking do?!?!? I don't go. For no good fucking reason except that I am scared to death. Am I scared that maybe I'm ( Read more... )

I'm feeling silly today!! It's probably due to the total lack of sleep I have been experiencing lately. Sarah also informed me that I talk in my sleep, that could come back to haunt me later!!! Ha! I can write whatever I want because no one reads my shitty journal anyways, at least they never comment. :) Truth is I really don't have much to say ( Read more... )