yeah .....not to seem excited but I GOT MY FIRST JOB TODAY!!!!! well technically its called a "book" and its for a designer. Im going to wear their clothes and they are going to take pictures and im going to get paid for it. as easy as it seems its not. i walked from fucking east 86 to timbuck two all day. on the subway off the subway jesus...but ( Read more... )

fucking forget it.

i felt as if i was shipped off to work my heart out on the thing i love most. i left my friends and family behind and started new and fresh in new york. ok so maybe i am overexaggerating. Yes i did agree on going but the shock of actually doing it is what made me come back to this journal. The big city is a change for the best in my career as a ( Read more... )

So i have decided that fighting is stupid. so its no longer nessacary.

so i have decided that relationships are wonderful.
i love you audrey
love you more aaron

updating is so...time consuming? not im just lazy

WAY TO GO

Tell me its over when you stop making up excuses. i want to be changed into someone new and your the one with that clue of how it can all turn out, but your drifting away and im slowly starting to say...im better off with or without you....with you.

My pen is the barrol the gun remind me which side you should be on.

So i want to stop you from this mess you are creating, but i am not certain where to start. I guess your just looking for the exit. I also want to be free right now, but the chains arent getting any looser. I never thought happyness could be so hard to achieve. i mean one moment your standing there so happy then you stand back and look at it all it ( Read more... )