I keep posting and writing, posting and writing. Words upon words. I guess my manager summed it up nicely: "If I wake up another day, it's not my job to know why I'm here, only that I know I'm here because someone else needs me ( Read more... )

I'm incredibly conflicted about continuing to post reflections. Two sides of the same coin, and both are trying to tear apart from the other ( Read more... )

Not a good day mentally. Definitely feeling the overwhelming weight of despair today.

...why am I even here?

I've entered the realm of cynical again. Cynical about humans in general, including myself. It's not really a good thing, because now I am seriously looking at this from a perspective of once again retreating into myself and the desolate world that I inhabit ( Read more... )

I'm writing again, but still feel incredible emptiness ( Read more... )

Haven't responded to my dad. I really just want people to leave me the fuck alone and let me travel my path alone ( Read more... )

Goddamned nightmare. I will travel alone from here on. I'm beyond pissed.

Started the damn facebook back again. Already had multiple friend requests from all the people that followed me before--mostly friends and acquaintances who are probably wondering what corner of the world I fell off. A few new ones ( Read more... )

"...the world, is not the same as it was." In some ways true, in others, not ( Read more... )

How quickly I am reminded of all that I have lost, and all the people I loved...yet abandoned in their times of need.