i gave up ( Read more... )

Today is the last day before spring break. I am indeed loved. I was talking to Gena about 10 mins ago and I found out why the other "goth" kids don't like me. It's because Jon and Rachael think that Chris Howard is lying about how he can levitate fire, just when no one is around. So Chris is a "witch." Or so he thinks. But the thing is I am a ( Read more... )

Thursday I got caught. I was in band class and a teacher literally pulled me out into the hall and demanded to see my arms. I had cut the night before and the cuts were bright against my pale flesh.She pulled me through the hallways and into the nurses office where i got a lecture, then to the office where I saw my best friend (Gena), my boyfriend ( Read more... )

I can't believe it has been so long since i have posted on my lj. Hmmm ( Read more... )

Today has been the week from hell. After my friend dying and my brand new shoes getting stolen, not making the softball team etc i slashed my arms to fuck. I cried yesterday so much that my mom yelled at me and threw me out. I felt so dirty because i couldn't help crying. My grandpa came and picked me up from outside and took me home. I felt so ( Read more... )

The guy who slit that stupid fuck's tires got caught. They blamed me but they actually caught the real guy. He was my cousin and he is getting praised by everyone ( Read more... )

What the fuck is wrong with people? I just had someone in my class commit suicide and...a senior said that he deserved to have shot himself in the head, he deserved to die, he deserved to FUCKING die. The entire sophomore class is pissed beyond belief to say the least, and a freshman went out to his car and slit his two front tires. He pointed me ( Read more... )

Today is a day from hell. I am surrounded by crying people. Evern the people that were sent to my school to help us with the tragedy are crying. Today I learned that a boy in my school commited suicide. He had a fight with his girlfriend and last night around midnight he killed himself with a self infliceted gun shot wound. It's so fucking bad ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a wonderful hour long lecture from the nurse! During 6th period I was pulled out by a nurse at my school and for 1 whole fucking hour I was lectured about substance abuse, alcohol abuse, and cutting. She told me that you make choices that when you are a kid that influences how you will turn out as an adult- and how the "change" for ( Read more... )

Over this past weekend I decided to bleach my hair from midnight blue to dye it pink. My mom gave me some old clothes to wear so that she didn't get any dye on my black clothes. She handed me a faded tshirt and a pair of shorts. I looked at the T-shirt and I asked if she could just let me wear what I was wearing- she said If i wanted to ruin them ( Read more... )