time's up ( Read more... )

Well here we are... just a couple miles from the coast of florida. Our deployment is pretty much over. We are dropping off our air dept, taking care of things that normally hold ships up like, customs and trash, and then just going straight home! We're supposed to take on some Tiger cruise people. (that's where we take some civilians and family ( Read more... )

well i want you to notice
to notice when i'm not around
and i know that your eyes see straight through me
and speak to me without a sound

[chorus]

i want to hold you
protect you from all of the things I've already endured
I want to show you
Show you all the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you ( Read more... )

and i lie, here in bed... all alone

It's just crazy how quickly you can go from feeling awesome, to brought down to the bottom. Seems to happen when i'm either overworked or bored out of my mind.

It's whatever though.

even though i've come so far, i've got so far to go.I hate being out here, immensely. this about the time last deployment i ( Read more... )

Something isn't right...

My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses
Leaving me breathless, the reason I know

If nothing else can ever calm me down, at least there is something i can listen to, to make me feel like everything i have or will think, someone else has before.

something in the way... mmmmm... mmmm.... something in the way, yeah, mmmm mmmm

less than two months to go ^_^ i am so happy and so increadibly anxious to get home to my beautiful nilla, and my precious kids :-)

tracee has sent me pictures like the last 3 days in a row and it's just gotten me super excited about going home. I just plain can't wait (my nilla is increadibly pretty for those of you who didn't know) :-)

so 100 days away from home have passed. the numbers aren't why i am depressed, but i am sure they're not helping my mind cope any better... right now... I dunno... sleep deprevation is probably not helping. Everytime i have a larger than i think i should've dinner too i get sad. I tried to watch movies to take my mind off of shit that were on the ( Read more... )

it's so sad when the navy determines that you have spent enough days out to sea to give the crew members beer. Granted it was heavily regulated and only 2 beers, it was still pretty nice. I drank mine, no buzz or anything... just tasted really good, heh. I just... i dunno... it felt like shawshank redemption, lol

cuz everything inside, it never ( Read more... )

I really wish i could see my beautiful family right now. Things have been crazy out to sea, it's 3:30 am and i am just exhausted. This life out to sea is rediculous. I don't ever want to go out to sea again. I thought this deployment would be worth the money and it's not even close *sigh* Just want shit to go right, and it wont... things out here ( Read more... )