i'm so glad i'm not one of those people who turns myspace into a manifesto about themselves, because i've tried reading those and it sucks so bad. no one cares about everyones day to day life. it's retarded. shutup/growup. i hate you guys ( Read more... )

so much is happening so fast,
i don't even know whats going on anymore.
and it kills me that when i really need you,
you aren't to be found.

i never cry,
but that's all i've been doing.
or fighting back tears.
death never bothered me before,
but this is such an overwhelming situation.

i feel so selfish.
i don't want to fly,
or be around crying people,
or watch ( Read more... )

 i am sincerely happier than i've been in a long ass time ( Read more... )

i can't sleep,
so i figured where else to put my unsettled thoughts than this stupid journal.

this is the most awkward phase of my life,
i'm neither here nor there,
not to mention that for the first time in a long time i'm completely alone.
all my good friends have their lives all planned out,
and here i am just beginning to think of mine.
it's odd for me ( Read more... )

ALL JEALOUS CUNTS:

GROW UP. 
STOP TRYING TO RAIN ON MY MOTHA FUCKIN PARADE.
I'M HAPPY, YOU'RE NOT, I KNOW IT SUCKS. 
BOO FUCKIN HOO.
I GOT ACCEPTED TO MY TOP CHOICE SCHOOL,
YOU DIDN'T SO GO SUCK A BIG ONE.

LOVE, BROOKELYNN

to everyone else:
be happy for me. i got into my TOP CHOICE school,
Marymount Manhatten College.

yayy<3

has become this blurr,
neither good nor bad,
i feel like i'm just living for the sake of living.

i saw the bodies exihibit the other day,
it was much better than i expected.
expect i felt like everyone other than me was like,
scared to get too close to the bodies.
i really liked the fetuses,
i know it sounds gross but it was really cool.

i feel like i'm ( Read more... )

what it comes down to is:

i'm really just not used to people walking away before i'm ready for it.
and i'll admit it hurts to feel invisible,
it makes me sorry for doing it to people in the past.

and it's also kind of..frustraiting that literally everyone is in a relationship,
like literally ALL of my friends have someone to lean on.
it just kind of ( Read more... )

i'm just waiting for something terribly tragic to happen.
something that just tops everything else terrible.
maybe it's just what i need, a REAL reason to be sad.

i feel like i've been looking down on my life for the past few months,
and it upsets me that i have absolutely nothing to show from it.
i've gone no where, gotten nothing, had no one, ( Read more... )

- i get really upset/angry when i see happy couples and people in love, who are they to have something that everyone wishes they did? aren't i as equally diserving of that good feeling? totally unfair.

- i always want to know what you are thinking, but i'd terribly afraid to ask just incase you tell me something i don't want to hear, and when i do ( Read more... )

i'm growing so tired of my rituals ( Read more... )